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[homicidalteacup]

I'm so upset right now that my stomach is killing me, I have to remind myself to breathe, and there's a tightness in my chest and a growing anxiety. Why? Because of this shit hole place I call home. 10:30 at night, I'm in my room watching TV when I hear a gun shot very close to my window. Immediately I knew that if i ran to the window on the other side of the apartment I would see the people responsible running away. In fact I was just in time to see them running back towards their apartment. I was really careful not to be seen. I quickly told both my bf and my father and neither of them did a thing... I couldn't believe it! Not only was I in shock of what just occurred, and what I had personally  witnessed, the two most important men in my life didn't do a thing to handle the situation or even attempt to settle me down. After thinking it through I called the cops and told them what they car looked like, what apartment they lived at, what I had witnessed tonight, and that I saw the same group of guys with a handgun a few days ago. I told them that I didn't want them to come to my door because it would have been obvious who had called the cops. Yet I'm still afraid and there is no one around to talk to or sit with. I feel completely alone right now.

I just can't believe it... What if the target was intended for a human? What if they had actually hit that target and hurt or killed someone? No one but me seemed to care. And that's incredibly sad. It just reminds me of how fucked up the rest of the world is. And that the problem with society is that too many people just don't care about what goes on around them. It is our greatest fault and it shows in so many ways. All of it makes me sick.