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Wow I haven't been on this in forever. I see it still seems to be a way of communication between everyone to let each other know how they are doing or things that are on their mind, I don't think we will ever grow up fully at least I hope not I like being able to act like a kid at times and not always being so serious.
Anyways so lets see what has happened since I last posted umm found a girl that I didn't even know why I got into a relationship with her and it turned out to be the best thing of my life. Then yall all know me I threw it all away in one second by making a stupid mistake. Sure she says we will talk in Christmas maybe or when she gets over what I did, but I see the writing on the walls and it doesn't look pretty.
Speaking of life being pretty it hasn't been at all this semester. I think Auburn really needs to invest in a Fall break and not give us a week for Thanksgiving. We have been going non-stop the entire semester and I am completely worn out from everything. I am failing two classes and making a C in computer cause I can barely keep my head above water. I am only taking 13 hours actually it will drop to 12 if I can't get into an organic chem lecture and they are all bull crap classes. ADD kid are priority two and get to register early I suffer from depression and am diagnosed can I move up to priority two cause it is very stressful and who knows what I will do. Speaking of that I will let you know on some secrets of mine I have run away from Auburn once already trying to drive until I could no more and had a friend chase me down 280. Well the other thing I will keep quiet but I now have a helping hand even though she suffers from the same and I brought it all back up in her life. Its my fault she has started everything all over again. One of my room mates threatened my life cause his gf agreed to help with the power bill cause she lives at our apartment now instead of her dorm so when I told her the price everyone was paying she decide not to pay and he went on a roid rage. I find it funny that he thinks I am scared of him and his fake muscles. I am not scared of anyone and will not back down cause you get in my face and cuss me out and say you are going to hit me. Hit me if you talk the talk then walk the walk but he is too stupid and I knew he wouldn't do crap especially in fron of everyone getting on the transit. Anyways so yeah I am ready for a break and time out of Auburn. The only thing that sucks is I have to leave my helping hand for that long and right now she needs me more then I need her. Have you ever seen how the depression and sadness from individual effects another I have and it sucks.
On another note I have been told I am selfish and have not changed one bit from when I dated Caroline cause I am still a player and like my love triangles. Maybe its true but history repeats itself and right now I am at the point I will jump and attract anyone interested in me well almost anyone I am more selective these days. I mean how else do you mend a broken heart by trying to find the qualities of the girl you just lost in other women. I still have angry but have learned to control it a lot better these days cause if not I would be sitting in jail or kicked out of Auburn or my apartment for hitting the fake muscle stupid roommate that was paired with us and no one likes. Instead I have set in motion his exit and his gf's exit from our apartment. Its always good to get to know the important people. Anyways so as always in my perspective life is on a downfall and hopefully will start back up sooner then later, but I am at the point of not caring anymore and am just struggling to survive each day as they come. So I walk around each down thinking about the woman I lost and all the destruction I have left in other's lifes and how much of a failure I am right now.
I might be transfering to Bama for easier education, but I doubt my parents will let me cause the only reason I went to Auburn was for the challenge and I don't give up. Its kicking my butt right now but maybe an easy semester will help out a lot next semester. Who knows what will happen other then the Big Man upstairs and really everything is in his hands now I can't be selfish and try and do it all on my own. Oh yeah and don't worry about the country either Obama can't do much without Congress support and there are Democrats out there that do not agree with him and he is slowly taking people out of their seats to fill his cabinet leaving room for Republicans. God knows what he is doing and if government fails the people we have the right to overthrow it thats why we are the United States today cause Parliment failed the colonies and they overthrew its rule here by gaining Independence. This is long enough and plus I got to get up tomorrow to cheer the beloved #1 ranked Crimson Tide. Love to all and good night.
Anyways so lets see what has happened since I last posted umm found a girl that I didn't even know why I got into a relationship with her and it turned out to be the best thing of my life. Then yall all know me I threw it all away in one second by making a stupid mistake. Sure she says we will talk in Christmas maybe or when she gets over what I did, but I see the writing on the walls and it doesn't look pretty.
Speaking of life being pretty it hasn't been at all this semester. I think Auburn really needs to invest in a Fall break and not give us a week for Thanksgiving. We have been going non-stop the entire semester and I am completely worn out from everything. I am failing two classes and making a C in computer cause I can barely keep my head above water. I am only taking 13 hours actually it will drop to 12 if I can't get into an organic chem lecture and they are all bull crap classes. ADD kid are priority two and get to register early I suffer from depression and am diagnosed can I move up to priority two cause it is very stressful and who knows what I will do. Speaking of that I will let you know on some secrets of mine I have run away from Auburn once already trying to drive until I could no more and had a friend chase me down 280. Well the other thing I will keep quiet but I now have a helping hand even though she suffers from the same and I brought it all back up in her life. Its my fault she has started everything all over again. One of my room mates threatened my life cause his gf agreed to help with the power bill cause she lives at our apartment now instead of her dorm so when I told her the price everyone was paying she decide not to pay and he went on a roid rage. I find it funny that he thinks I am scared of him and his fake muscles. I am not scared of anyone and will not back down cause you get in my face and cuss me out and say you are going to hit me. Hit me if you talk the talk then walk the walk but he is too stupid and I knew he wouldn't do crap especially in fron of everyone getting on the transit. Anyways so yeah I am ready for a break and time out of Auburn. The only thing that sucks is I have to leave my helping hand for that long and right now she needs me more then I need her. Have you ever seen how the depression and sadness from individual effects another I have and it sucks.
On another note I have been told I am selfish and have not changed one bit from when I dated Caroline cause I am still a player and like my love triangles. Maybe its true but history repeats itself and right now I am at the point I will jump and attract anyone interested in me well almost anyone I am more selective these days. I mean how else do you mend a broken heart by trying to find the qualities of the girl you just lost in other women. I still have angry but have learned to control it a lot better these days cause if not I would be sitting in jail or kicked out of Auburn or my apartment for hitting the fake muscle stupid roommate that was paired with us and no one likes. Instead I have set in motion his exit and his gf's exit from our apartment. Its always good to get to know the important people. Anyways so as always in my perspective life is on a downfall and hopefully will start back up sooner then later, but I am at the point of not caring anymore and am just struggling to survive each day as they come. So I walk around each down thinking about the woman I lost and all the destruction I have left in other's lifes and how much of a failure I am right now.
I might be transfering to Bama for easier education, but I doubt my parents will let me cause the only reason I went to Auburn was for the challenge and I don't give up. Its kicking my butt right now but maybe an easy semester will help out a lot next semester. Who knows what will happen other then the Big Man upstairs and really everything is in his hands now I can't be selfish and try and do it all on my own. Oh yeah and don't worry about the country either Obama can't do much without Congress support and there are Democrats out there that do not agree with him and he is slowly taking people out of their seats to fill his cabinet leaving room for Republicans. God knows what he is doing and if government fails the people we have the right to overthrow it thats why we are the United States today cause Parliment failed the colonies and they overthrew its rule here by gaining Independence. This is long enough and plus I got to get up tomorrow to cheer the beloved #1 ranked Crimson Tide. Love to all and good night.