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1. i have no idea what age i'm supposed to be. when i'm with other sophomores in college, i feel young. when i'm with other seventeen year olds, i feel very old.
2. technically, i'm not a sophomore. to be considered a sophomore, you have to have twenty five credits. i have twenty four. but i still do all the sophomore type things and none of the freshman ones.
3. i love the fact that i cut my own hair, but i absolutely hate actually cutting my hair.
4. i have not cut myself since, i believe, february. i have, however, scratched a bit, had to make a very conscious decision to not cut myself, and had a very strong urge to take all the allergy medicine i have left.
5. sometimes, i don't understand why more people don't completely love me.
6. sometimes, i don't understand why so many people do.
7. one of the main reasons i'm at college is so i don't have to live with my mother.
8. the more time goes by, the less sure i am that i want to major in theatre arts. i now have absolutely no idea what i'm doing here.
9. i judge people's style and appearence and all sorts of other petty things, but i don't really judge the person.
10. i usually can't tell if i'm actually crazy or if i'm just pretending to be to get attention.
11. i am bound and determined to someday become a suicide girl (not as in killing myself, as in suicidegirls.com).
12. i think that my jolly roger air freshener is just about the coolest thing ever.
13. sometimes, i wish i were still anorexic. but when i see a girl with the body that i've been after, i think she looks sick and unhealthy. and yet, that's still what i want.
14. the fact that i have never been more sure of anything and i have never felt this way before and this could very well be the greatest thing to ever happen to me freaks the hell out of me, but only because it doesn't really scare me at all.
15. i am never living in murrieta again, not even for a summer. my mom, however, is currently unaware of this. i should probably let her know.
16. there are more "girly" aspects to me than i usually care to admit. for instance, i have a weakness for romantic movies, i love to paint my nails, there is little that compares to the thrill of a new pair of shoes or a killer dress or some new make up, and even though it's a completely commercial and superficial day, i love valentine's day.
17. for about two years, i was known to several people as an ice queen. and i loved that. i didn't want anyone to know that i had any of the basic human feelings and desires we all do. i wanted them all to believe that nothing affected me. i don't think i did a very good job.
18. i totally love playing the part of seductress.
19. i have a (probably not so) secret passion for talking about myself, for revealing the kinds of things that don't normally show up in everyday conversations. that's why i do surveys.
20. sometimes, i'm tempted to screw us up just to spite my mother. i'm not sure where that hostility comes from, and i try to supress it. but it's there.
i tag amber and priscilla.
2. technically, i'm not a sophomore. to be considered a sophomore, you have to have twenty five credits. i have twenty four. but i still do all the sophomore type things and none of the freshman ones.
3. i love the fact that i cut my own hair, but i absolutely hate actually cutting my hair.
4. i have not cut myself since, i believe, february. i have, however, scratched a bit, had to make a very conscious decision to not cut myself, and had a very strong urge to take all the allergy medicine i have left.
5. sometimes, i don't understand why more people don't completely love me.
6. sometimes, i don't understand why so many people do.
7. one of the main reasons i'm at college is so i don't have to live with my mother.
8. the more time goes by, the less sure i am that i want to major in theatre arts. i now have absolutely no idea what i'm doing here.
9. i judge people's style and appearence and all sorts of other petty things, but i don't really judge the person.
10. i usually can't tell if i'm actually crazy or if i'm just pretending to be to get attention.
11. i am bound and determined to someday become a suicide girl (not as in killing myself, as in suicidegirls.com).
12. i think that my jolly roger air freshener is just about the coolest thing ever.
13. sometimes, i wish i were still anorexic. but when i see a girl with the body that i've been after, i think she looks sick and unhealthy. and yet, that's still what i want.
14. the fact that i have never been more sure of anything and i have never felt this way before and this could very well be the greatest thing to ever happen to me freaks the hell out of me, but only because it doesn't really scare me at all.
15. i am never living in murrieta again, not even for a summer. my mom, however, is currently unaware of this. i should probably let her know.
16. there are more "girly" aspects to me than i usually care to admit. for instance, i have a weakness for romantic movies, i love to paint my nails, there is little that compares to the thrill of a new pair of shoes or a killer dress or some new make up, and even though it's a completely commercial and superficial day, i love valentine's day.
17. for about two years, i was known to several people as an ice queen. and i loved that. i didn't want anyone to know that i had any of the basic human feelings and desires we all do. i wanted them all to believe that nothing affected me. i don't think i did a very good job.
18. i totally love playing the part of seductress.
19. i have a (probably not so) secret passion for talking about myself, for revealing the kinds of things that don't normally show up in everyday conversations. that's why i do surveys.
20. sometimes, i'm tempted to screw us up just to spite my mother. i'm not sure where that hostility comes from, and i try to supress it. but it's there.
i tag amber and priscilla.