Its just not something you think about...When your thinking about stuff"
Since it takes me a long time to fall asleep these days...Ive had lots of time to think. Some of it is about school because I just feel totally unorganized and I need to sit down and figure out WHAT I am doing. Even though deep down I know Im pretty set. I just want to be REALLY set. I guess that could be part of today's project. One of the other things I think about is falling in love - but like I bitch about that too much and really don'e care all that much anyway right now. Then I get to thinking about the future and work and what cool things I can do with my life. I have no idea. I know that I want to go back to school eventually and I know what subjects etc. I like - but I have NO idea what things to take. I was looking at COD yesterday for giggles to see what kind of classes they had for fall (by the way them on semesters really fucks things up for me) and I couldn't think of anything that I really truly wanted to take. I thought possibly about cooking for singles but that kinda made me feel pathetic. I don't know. Anyway... I just have no idea about what kind of degree's I should be looking into. I don't really know what my interests are outside of teaching. I think part of this is a problem because I never allowed myself to do anything other than music, theatre, academics - in both high school AND college. In college I was so into Speech Path that I let myself be consumed by it - all I wanted to do was be a SLP....well look where that got me. Although Im glad it changed - and yes my roommates from Bostad are saying we told you from the beginning that you should be a Special Ed. teacher. I love teaching. I really really love it. But I feel like there are other things Im supposed to be exploring. I also have this whole salary thing...I need to get 45 more hours - so thats another masters plus some - and I just don't know what to do. Ultimately for that it should be in something that I teach or that will enrich my teaching. One of my assistants said that I should do social work - which I thought about - or counsling which I have thought about. Part of me still wants to be a nurse but -- yeah Im thinking not so much. Im too old to start those shannanigans. I just dont know what I want to do. There is the whole get your administrative degree so that I can be dean or APSS or something like that - which I have been told I would be good at. I just do not know! So any help would be fantastic - what do YOU think I would be good at?
My sister and I are going to go see HP this afternoon - She and her friend Emily are going to go see if they can meet the Weesley twins - I passed on that outing. I can't do too much. Part of me is thinking I should go to convienant care now and see about my ear...but then on the other hand if I wait until tomorrow - I can maybe see MY doctor. I have an adjustment tomorrow so maybe that will help too...I dunno.
Okay..off to do something