Sorry in advance for the glum nature of this post.
I just need friends. I realize after being with Manny for 2 + years, I have little to no friends. I centered my world on him and his friends, and now I'm left with nothing. Up here in Tallahassee, I literally have 2-3 friends, who all just happen to be my roommates. When I go down to Miami for breaks, I need to keep myself busy. Thanksgiving, someone to shop with for Black Friday, Christmas break, New Years eve.. I have nothing. I don't mean to sound like a completely morose person... but I just need companionship right now. I need friends to call me just to talk, I need plans after class when I'm not doing HW, I need weekend plans. I'm totally free now, I just need the invite to do so. I hate complaining like this. 2+ years ago I would have taken the initiative, called people, made plans, took the reigns so to speak. But now I'm weak and I just need to be nurtured back into life without Manny. I'm sorry for being so pessimistic, I am, I know things will get better with time. My mom and everyone say to me, "There is life without Manny"... and I know its true, but my response to it all is "But I don't know how to live that life."