Will ya sleep tonight, or will you think of me?
So it's been a while. And holy poo has my mind been goin crazy. There's so much going on that it's all just bunching up together. Like the fact that I'M GOING TO BE A SENIOR NEXT YEAR! along with the rest of the class of 06. and of course...this years graduation was just a simply magical thing to me. Me and Erika just sat there freaking out the whole time because in a year we'll be down there on the floor waiting for our names to be called. And we were rediculously excited for those whose were called this year. Me and Steev's Mom both missed getting pictures of him getting his diploma because we were busy screaming. Ha, he said he heard me on the stage. Who's got a set of lungs? That would be me. But I mean it was just an awesome feeling all day. I really did feel like the activity in the pavillion was the only thing that mattered in the world. Like nothing else could possibly be happening that was more important. But yeah. I'm getting older. Not old, but older. I have a job. A good job in fact. Kinda boring, but what do you expect for $8 an hour for a 17 year old with no other experience? Donna got me that one. Awesome awesome. She's awesome. The other Donna gave us a scare but winding up in the hospital for chest pains...a week after my Uncle was in again for the same thing. My foot hurts. Ha. My report card was awesome. 3 b's and 3 a's for the year. I'm still mad at Ms. Hennessy because I had a 92.7 for the semester and the year and even though I gave her my binder from Kellam and fossilized coral...she didn't give me the 1.3. Oh well. But like...life is awesome. I've had my doubts before, but now it's all clear. Everything is finally going smoothly. And I go to sleep happy about how the day went and actually excited about the next day as opposed to dreading it. Because I just don't care about the 'bad' stuff anymore. There's too much good to worry about it. I've also realized that I can't have regrets. Because everything works out for the best in the end, and things happen for a reason. Whether it's a decision I make, or don't make and just do...it's going to work out in the end. Even if I have to pass a bumpy road or two to get to where it gets good. It's all going to get better. And it's occured to me, that the more I dwell on the past, the more it will haunt me. Well not necessarily haunt...but bother. Many people have come in to my life, and just as many have left. And I have no regrets. It was fun while it lasted and that's what matters, no one can take my memories. They might not miss me as much I miss them, but there's really no point in worrying about it. Even if I do catch myself standing by the pay phone at work dialing Justine's number. Or randomly laughing hysterically when I think about the many late nights with Danielle. Those are all wonderful memories, and no matter what happens, no one can take them away from me or make like they never happened. No matter how short of a time someone may have been in my life, they've all left something with me, and helped me become who I am today..someone I happen to love. And speaking of love...it's only been about a month and a half since someone who's making quite the impression entered my life. And if I'm not mistaken, we've spent every day together for about a month of it. Steev makes me feel awesome. Just awesome. Like I can do anything, and even if I mess up, it's okay, because the point is that I tried. I owe a lot of my newfound sense of confidence and trust in the world to him. He made me see that life isn't over because of something that happens, or doesn't happen. I've lost many people in my life, generally to moving, or just drifting. But I see now, that there's always more people to meet out there, whether they're as good as the people before or not. He's introduced me to several people that I never knew existed, and they really do make my life brighter. My life has just come together perfectly in the past couple months. My family is awesome. My friends are awesome. And my boyfriend...is REALLY aweome.
Wow. That went on longer than I expected. I don't if I actually said anything because I just kinda started typing. Yeah everything's going perfect these days and it excites me. I DO regret not talking to Roy in a while, because he seems to be having a good time too. Erm. Cut and dyed my hair. In the words of Paris Hilton -- "that's hot". I hate her. Haha. But I do love that line.
Well. I need to get ready for work and Steev's supposed to be coming back later.
Adios.
I CANT WAIT TIL I GO TO OHIO! CEDAR POINT HERE I COME!