Here we go again...
So...day was normal ya know..went to work, did work it was cool...got FFXI cause Ben started playing again...all the money i'm spending...started saving all but 40 bucks out of each paycheck...I use that 40 as littel as possible then next pycheck do the only 40 again...so if I spend none of it...I end up putting that in my savings later...so...still making lots of money...kinda. Anyway...the thing I wanna talk about. Got home and started texting Corinne..which is pretty normal..conversation was fine and she was over someone's house so I say "Alright just give a call later babe ok?" and I get "Don't say that in responce." Apparently...i'm no longer allowed to call her babe...which is something I used to do all the time when we were together...and I can't tell her I love her...does this seem like she is trying to get a point acrossed or is it just me? Like I hear her tell me she loves me and how she wants to be with me...but why am I being treated like some infectious desease and I need to be kept at bay? Paranoia? Maybe. But still it seems like i'm getting told to leave her alone and not worry about her. Which I guess I can do after a while...but who knows if she wants that..things are starting to get weird for me...and when I visit her I hope to show her all the stuff i've been mentioning like how i'm better and stuff...but is 2 days enough...I doubt it...when/if she comes here for christmas THAT will be enough time...like 3 weeks...me doing whatever she wants whenever she wants being nothing but nice to her like I SHOULD have when we were dating...what a fool I am...oh well..things happen...and I guess in time you learn to accept everything...I think i've just about got it down...and I hope it doesn't mean i'll just give up on love. I talked to Ben the other night when he was drunk...apparently he had a girl he really liked named Kim and they broke up..and basically he doesn't talk to her anymore...but he misses her and he loves her. Am I destined to be that guy? Chasing Amy...cause it was a good movie...but damned if I wanna live that out.