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I guess i write this to be heard in a way. To get out what i have really say with out really saying it. Just to really be me again. To say exactly what i have to say without hiding anything to stop holing back. To let me feel again. Its my own type of therapy. and Sorry all but i cant spell and ive noticed that this does not have spell check. I miss my life Shawna and Laura the are my life. My Everything My world. I cant wait to get out and start a new life with them. Can you be complete with out being married with out having kids. I alway thought that to complete your self you have to find someone to marry then have kids and life would just be perfect then my parent got divorice and everything changed, my world go turned up side down it made me question everything i ever believed. I thought they were happy then the next thing i know my mom is sending a letter to my father saying she was going to stay in SD. How could i have been a part of that i still thing that just maybe that if i would not have begged my mom to come with me that summer they would still be together. But still how could have been with my mom when she went to the post office.What type of daughter would i have been. If you dont know i didnt go with her. I know i dont like my father but still I could have lived with the guilt it would have been like i wanted my parent to get divoriced. Sorry old wounds. I was just luck to have my sister there that year i dont know what i would have done if she was not there the day i found out. I love you sister and I thank you for never have letting me down for beeing the person i can alway count on. For being my Rock. I love you and miss you so much. I can wait to hang out with you again and laugh. I just miss you sister