i guess things are a little better
i got to cuddle last night all night
and although my eyes were about to close shut (thanks to my wonderful alergies)
it was exactly what i needed
i love that i can have really close guys friends
its weird that when you need support, the people that you thought you would get it from
don't give it to you the right way
(cause aparently there is a right way)
and the people you least expect are those that say and do all the right things
i guess that's not entirely true, cause i expected my sister, and of course she knew what to do
[I couldn't tell you the right way, i don't know how to handle this myself, but when support is given in the right way, you just know, i guess it depends on how you feel afterward or during, i guess its the effect, so if the person trying to support you doesn't get it right, its not their fault. (beat) i really understand what rachel meant now, i hate that]
oh! AND i had a cockroach in my bathtub on sunday. that was a blast. stupid irrational fear of bugs.
i know roaches don't eat you in yor sleep, but tell that to my subconscious
so its been quite a week, and i don't believe its ending, but i am slowing down. and i'm going to take Mattie's advice and take a day off next week, go talk to someone, try to get this mess straightened out
side note: finally got to see Fahrenheit 9/11
and although my eyes were about to close shut (thanks to my wonderful alergies)
it was exactly what i needed
i love that i can have really close guys friends
its weird that when you need support, the people that you thought you would get it from
don't give it to you the right way
(cause aparently there is a right way)
and the people you least expect are those that say and do all the right things
i guess that's not entirely true, cause i expected my sister, and of course she knew what to do
[I couldn't tell you the right way, i don't know how to handle this myself, but when support is given in the right way, you just know, i guess it depends on how you feel afterward or during, i guess its the effect, so if the person trying to support you doesn't get it right, its not their fault. (beat) i really understand what rachel meant now, i hate that]
oh! AND i had a cockroach in my bathtub on sunday. that was a blast. stupid irrational fear of bugs.
i know roaches don't eat you in yor sleep, but tell that to my subconscious
so its been quite a week, and i don't believe its ending, but i am slowing down. and i'm going to take Mattie's advice and take a day off next week, go talk to someone, try to get this mess straightened out
side note: finally got to see Fahrenheit 9/11