give each other space and not the evil eye...

[holyromanstyle]

let's just put it out there. i've never been the most faithful of people. most would say i'm a cheater and even more of the male population would call me "a cock tease".but i'd like to think i'm learning my lesson. before it's too late. i don't need someone to kick me in the ass or yell at me or bitch and moan at me to the point that i get it.i'll get the point, especially if i'm bein lied to, and smoshezed. it's amazing how little moments can change an entire perception of a person. it's sort of like that damn movie "alfie" said. you have those "uh oh" moments in a relationship, past the honemoon, maybe earlier, but you just know that things have changed and not for the better. i've had a few of those. they hurt becaue you feel like maybe it could be salvaged, but bdeep down ,and the more people you ask and get advice from, thr more the answer is no. you can't erase hurt. you can't erase distrust. you can't erase physical. in other words, you can not erase the damage done. you either decided to rebuild, hold on and hate, or detach. all options, besides rebuilding, seem so easy. but truth be told, ignoring is not detaching, not in the slightest way. you can ignore on the outside, leve the phone to ring, but it doesn't stop the mind. it doesn't stop the memories, or the inside jokes or the care and concern and if anyone has figured out how to get rid of that, then please by all means let me know. i have yet to solve that dilema.

what i'm trying to say is i'm sorry for all offenses known and unknown and yet to be committed.bear with me and find out if i'm worth it in the end.

please,
xXx

i know i'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
i got to fold cuz these hands are
too shaky to hold
hunger hurts
but starving works
when it costs too much to love...