Oops I did it again...
Just forgot why my left forearm hurt, then remembered I relapsed earlier today. Bad times. Although of course it does feel amazing to cut after you haven't for what seems like a lifetime (ok so one month, the last time being just before I had a chance encounter with sinewave42 ). I worry that this is the habit I'm getting into, going for one or two months clean then having a minor breakdown and relapsing before it starts again. I know in theory it isn't healthy, but it seems to work, and to be honest as long as I don't have fresh ones all the time I don't care about the actual cuts. They aren't very deep and I can cover my arms for a week or so until they start to go pale and scar, and I'm starting to grow quite fond of the little patch of scars all parallel and that. The main disadvantage is how other people react to them, which often isn't too much of a problem at the moment. I just know I'm going to regret this.