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[holykeebler216]

It's terrible. It's absolutely terrible.

Fandom. It's...a wonderful thing. It makes you feel happy and giddy and feel like you haven't felt in years, makes you make sounds you haven't made since you were six years old, or really, ever, in some cases. It makes you dream makes you think of a fantasy world where everything is happy, and everyone is

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[nishiara_hitomi]

Ah I know how you feel... Every now and then I question the same thing. Every passing year I ask myself "Aren't you a little too old for this? "Isn't time for you to start acting your age for once? What are you going to do with your life

[holykeebler216]

im glad you know what i mean

[nishiara_hitomi]

Well, eventually you WILL move on or at least, like you said, you will have to change your priorities. But, sometimes you don't even notices when you stop like things you used to adore.

You think that you're attached to some things but all in life doesn't last too long, even things you thought you will never get tired of.

Is true that after a long time it's could get ackward. My excuse in this is that I look (therefore I feel) A LOOOOOT younger that my age, but that doesn't stop me to think 'hey cute boy but he is too young, I feel like a pedo' or when I read comment like oppa! and I'm like "wow, I'm shipping guys that are younger than me for severals years'

The good thing is that after a while you don't really get into newer, younger bands because of the age diference. Believe it or not, you stop find them cute (or at least you find them cute in the I-pat-you-in-the-head way)so you unconsiciously drift toward the older 'more mature' idols. So you don't have to worry about getting into fandoms where 13 years old are loose and

[holykeebler216]

i think youre right. i think we're both right, in ways. It really depends on the person. I mean, I grew out of NSYNC, and its possible the same will happen with DBSK. I dont know, only time will tell.

I do know that I will always have people there that i can go to, because I have shauna and she is my regular life friend and my fandom friend. Fandom is my regular life, but what i mean is for the people who just dont get it...I cant talk about it with them, and so I have different groups of friends. The ones that accept one part of me, the ones that accept the other, and the one that can balance between both. They all accept all of me, but they dont relate to all of me. And it makes it really hard sometimes

[nishiara_hitomi]

Change is a scary thing. It's just natural you're afraid of thinks changing because we are animals of habits, we like rutine and is hard for everybody to adjust to the ways of life, but I think you will fine. We are always afraid of the unknown and the future form part of it.

For now, you should enjoy the moment and brace yourself for the inminent change, but just as a reminder.

For now, let's enjoy the fandom as it is ^^ and if things change we can always change with them or back away.

[holykeebler216]

ahh yes. i still have time

i just feel old already XD
but for now, i will take all i can from fandom, and give all the rest of me back
and i should start writing fics again..i miss it

oh world. how dare you steal me away from my beloved fandom

do you have msn~?

[holykeebler216]

got it :D

[tiggie0307]

Wow. That's deep.
What sucks for my case; I been writng for seven years.
But just a year ago found the world of Kpop and fandom.(I started writing at a very young age).
Losing the will to write is tough.
I don't want to let it go.
Moving to a different type of writing, without my favorite band members as lead will be harder. Sigh. But it will happen.

But I don't think I'll be sad.
One of my favorite bands disbanded; but I still wrote; for I had classmates that would kill me if I didn't.

Those were the days...

[holykeebler216]

I've been writing a long time too, on and off
I only found Kpop about 8 months ago, it was around April that I really started to get into it, even though we first found DBSK in februrary
I don't think I'll lose the will to write, its just losing the subjects of so many of my pieces.
I'm probably going to delete my LJ when i leave fandom, there may not be a need for it anymore. I mean, if i leave fandom; its always going to be a part of me, but the deletion of my LJ would be a big part of moving away from this chapter of my life (if i do it of course...if im still pretty active in fandom, there will be no need!)
lol a lot of "if"'s....

also, wont it be weird when no one knows who you're writing about?? like if everyone was writing about some new band and you were writing DBSK or SUJU and they were like "whos that?" oh wow i would feel so old XDD

*sigh* i dont want anything to change...thats what im afraid of. but only time will tell where i stand in X years.
hopefully i'll still be able to keep fandom with me...
we'll see ^^;;

[korichan]

Gah...I've all ready been through that once, and I hate that I'm falling back into a fandom for the first time in ages because school, work, and family life have absolutely covered my life and leave so little left to actually pursuing a fandom. I lose a lot of friends by growing out of fandoms, and it makes me kind of hate making them based on those interests, because you think you've grown close to people and become friends outside one common interest and when the interest suddenly isn't there anymore they're gone with it. D:
I always believe as soon as I fully admit I'm in a fandom it becomes a countdown until I am dragged out of it, which is why I try and stay out of them as much as possible. I'm definitely hoping it won't be like that with Suju though, and hopefully you'll come out of it thinking it was worth it too. :D

[holykeebler216]

ahh i know what you mean

a lot of my friends, once the common interest is gone, so are they :/
i hope its different this time, though, i really do
i hope fandom can stay with me...i hope my fandom friends can stay with me too

it hurts to lose something you spend so much time on, though, and while you may not WANT to leave, sometimes you dont really have a choice; you just get too overwhelmed with work and school and other people and other things in your life and before you know it you're somewhere far away from what you loved and you dont know how you got there or how to get back.
im just afraid that will happen and...well, i hope it doesnt

for now, though, im basking in fandom as much as possible. for now, its worth it :)

[korichan]

That's good, and I think you'll probably come out of it for the better in the end. Hopefully that time is a long way away for both of us. =D