Good evening, bitches..
Alright kids, it's been a while I know, but I'm not necessarily back. I'm never on LJ because I never have anything to say. Well, unless I'm complaining about work or whatever else might be bothering me.. but who wants to read that bucket of shit?
I'm here to say, basically, I'm still alive and I've found a lot more to do with my time that doesn't really involve the internet. The computer? Yes. The internet? No. I have a few projects to keep me busy and I enjoy fucking around with them, so naturally I'm going to choose being occupied over staring at the screen wondering what the fuck I'm doing.
Also, I wanted to wish you guys some happy holidayage (that's pronounced holiday-edge kind of) and that uh.. well that's pretty much it. I don't have gifts because I have to save my money, but I'll figure something out for the people that I want to give shit to.
I forgot where I was going with the rest of this post, but I wanted to share something that I posted on Myspace. Just.. crap about me. So read it, or don't.. your choice, and uh.. maybe you'll understand me a little more.
Here.
I have little.. ticks. Problems, issues.. whatever you wanna call 'em. Not problems with other people or anything like that, but things about myself that people either don't understand or don't know about. So.. here I am to clear some of this up, in case you're one of these people.
First off, I distance myself from people sometimes. Even my closest friends I'll avoid from time to time for no other reason than I want to be by myself. It's never really brought on by anything, it's just something that I do. For those of you that have known me for a while, you probably know this already. If you don't know already, well, there ya go. If you ever find yourself sitting around wondering "Why the fuck hasn't Tommy called me?" or "Where the fuck is Tommy?" or whatever, there's your answer. And if you ever really want to know, just call me or message me or something. I'll tell you what the deal is straight off. Sometimes, I just like being alone.
I rarely look people in the eye when I speak to them. This isn't because I'm insincere or anything like that, I just look around a lot when I talk. It's almost like I'm blind and I'm trying to catch a glimpse of the words I speak. If you ever see me doing this, don't pay any attention to it. I don't mean what I say any less because I'm not looking directly at you. I just don't look at people when I talk. *shrug*
I have a habit of overreacting to really dumb things. If you've known me for about 30 minutes, you probably know this already. For those that don't know this, well, you either haven't been around me for very long or you just haven't given me anything incredibly dumb to overreact to. I have no explanation for why I do this.. but sometimes very small, insignificant things will annoy me to the point of melting down. I'll most likely throw something or yell about whatever's annoying me. If you ever witness this, pay no attention and give me about 10 minutes to do my thing, then I'll be fine. If you tell me it's stupid, it'll piss me off even more and you'll become the subject of my annoyance or anger. Just let it ride and everything'll be cool.
The last thing I can really think of right now is that I'm pretty inconsistent with shit. I'll start something strong, say to hell with it two days later, and pick it right back up afterwards. Once again, no explanation for this. If you find yourself wondering why I haven't done this or I haven't done that, it's because I'm either ass deep in other shit, or I just put it off for some other time. I procrastinate pretty much everything, and what I don't procrastinate gets set aside until I can figure out a way to do so.
If I think of more I'll add it later or just post a new entry about it. Either way, there ya go. If you find yourself offended or angry or whatever about any of this shit I do, you're doing yourself a serious disservice because it's nothing I'm going to change. It's not that I can't change these things because I'm pretty sure I can. I just won't. I won't because these few things define me to myself, and if I changed them, I wouldn't feel like me.. that and I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I wasn't fucking something up. :P
Seriously, though.. you're only hurting yourself if you're reading too much into things. Hopefully this will keep those of you that don't know this stuff from doing so, and in turn save you a lot of time and emotion that could be better focused on positive aspects of your daily lives.
So, there you have it. I might try to be on here a little more, but I doubt I will. To all of you I talked to on a fairly regular basis, I haven't forgotten about you, I promise. A lot of all that up there will explain some things.
I'm going to pay bills now. Wooooo..
I'm here to say, basically, I'm still alive and I've found a lot more to do with my time that doesn't really involve the internet. The computer? Yes. The internet? No. I have a few projects to keep me busy and I enjoy fucking around with them, so naturally I'm going to choose being occupied over staring at the screen wondering what the fuck I'm doing.
Also, I wanted to wish you guys some happy holidayage (that's pronounced holiday-edge kind of) and that uh.. well that's pretty much it. I don't have gifts because I have to save my money, but I'll figure something out for the people that I want to give shit to.
I forgot where I was going with the rest of this post, but I wanted to share something that I posted on Myspace. Just.. crap about me. So read it, or don't.. your choice, and uh.. maybe you'll understand me a little more.
Here.
I have little.. ticks. Problems, issues.. whatever you wanna call 'em. Not problems with other people or anything like that, but things about myself that people either don't understand or don't know about. So.. here I am to clear some of this up, in case you're one of these people.
First off, I distance myself from people sometimes. Even my closest friends I'll avoid from time to time for no other reason than I want to be by myself. It's never really brought on by anything, it's just something that I do. For those of you that have known me for a while, you probably know this already. If you don't know already, well, there ya go. If you ever find yourself sitting around wondering "Why the fuck hasn't Tommy called me?" or "Where the fuck is Tommy?" or whatever, there's your answer. And if you ever really want to know, just call me or message me or something. I'll tell you what the deal is straight off. Sometimes, I just like being alone.
I rarely look people in the eye when I speak to them. This isn't because I'm insincere or anything like that, I just look around a lot when I talk. It's almost like I'm blind and I'm trying to catch a glimpse of the words I speak. If you ever see me doing this, don't pay any attention to it. I don't mean what I say any less because I'm not looking directly at you. I just don't look at people when I talk. *shrug*
I have a habit of overreacting to really dumb things. If you've known me for about 30 minutes, you probably know this already. For those that don't know this, well, you either haven't been around me for very long or you just haven't given me anything incredibly dumb to overreact to. I have no explanation for why I do this.. but sometimes very small, insignificant things will annoy me to the point of melting down. I'll most likely throw something or yell about whatever's annoying me. If you ever witness this, pay no attention and give me about 10 minutes to do my thing, then I'll be fine. If you tell me it's stupid, it'll piss me off even more and you'll become the subject of my annoyance or anger. Just let it ride and everything'll be cool.
The last thing I can really think of right now is that I'm pretty inconsistent with shit. I'll start something strong, say to hell with it two days later, and pick it right back up afterwards. Once again, no explanation for this. If you find yourself wondering why I haven't done this or I haven't done that, it's because I'm either ass deep in other shit, or I just put it off for some other time. I procrastinate pretty much everything, and what I don't procrastinate gets set aside until I can figure out a way to do so.
If I think of more I'll add it later or just post a new entry about it. Either way, there ya go. If you find yourself offended or angry or whatever about any of this shit I do, you're doing yourself a serious disservice because it's nothing I'm going to change. It's not that I can't change these things because I'm pretty sure I can. I just won't. I won't because these few things define me to myself, and if I changed them, I wouldn't feel like me.. that and I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I wasn't fucking something up. :P
Seriously, though.. you're only hurting yourself if you're reading too much into things. Hopefully this will keep those of you that don't know this stuff from doing so, and in turn save you a lot of time and emotion that could be better focused on positive aspects of your daily lives.
So, there you have it. I might try to be on here a little more, but I doubt I will. To all of you I talked to on a fairly regular basis, I haven't forgotten about you, I promise. A lot of all that up there will explain some things.
I'm going to pay bills now. Wooooo..