when will it end
ok so here i am in cali....again......and right on time im home sick again. "when will it end" i ask again? but in my sulking i had the oppertunity to ponder......where is home? if im home sick then where is home....what is it that im missing? my father is in DC (i have yet to see the house but my fathers there so its permenatly considered home) my sisters in tacoma....i think that is also called home cuz shes my big sis and she cool like that, then theres the Ashbeck's place......how can i put this in right words....? i lived there for a week and i must say it really did start to feel like home.... i know that if it came to it there is a good chance that i could go back ( i dont want to be so arrogant as to say that it is my home and they woudld take me back in a heart beat) then there here...cali. i felt like it was home last year...it took a while but i called it home. They say that home is were the heart is.... i would like to say this about that.....my heart lives with in the memories that i have created with the people and placed that i have stayed....i remember christmas holiday here at the school before i left, the RD's made food down stairs and i had the best apple cider EVER! i also remember going home and having it snow for a week straight! we stayed at amys and we drank sparkeling cider,sat in the hot tub while it snowed. we had snow ball fights and then picknicked at the base of snowqualmy (sp)falls while a gentle blanket of snow fell on us. i remember sitting out side of Red robin with my sister as we talked for like 2 hours and she loved the story of esther....;) and of course my father......i hope to be just like him when i become a dad.....we had to say our goodbyes and we hugged out side of the outback steak house..... so where does my heart reside? to be honest i dont know.....i want my father.... i want my friends..... i want my sister......but i dont want to stop my whole life and not grow up just because im scared that one day the memories will fade and so will the bonds the so tightly hold all of us together.... i hope a day like that never comes. well hopefully this home sickness will pass soon.... im getting tired of it :o