Nov 13, 2005 00:06
im so fucking sick of all this stupid bullshit, im the biggest fuck up faggot ass little bitch in the world, so much shit happened tonight, its been a building up shit pile for the last week or so, and it just exploded in my face tonight, im sick of living like this, i just wanna get the fuck out, i just almost got into a fight with my dad, he was in my face threatening me and shit, and i stood up to him for a second than he was about to beat my ass, and i backed down like the little bitch ass faggot that i am, than this fucking stupid ass nigger mother fucker was talking all this shit to me, drugged out crack fucking nigger, fucking in my face telling me all this shit "if you such a big man than get a job and get the fuck out yo daddy house, you think you know everything but you dont know shit, you like a 2 year old little kid", fucking stupid ass dickhead, i stood up and asked him why the fuck he was even talking at all cause its none of his buisness, than my dad got pissed and went off on me, i almost fought that fucking piece of shit, in here threatening me and getting in my face and yelling and balling his fists and dancing around, stupid mother fucker, both of them, im so sick of my dads stupid ass shit, and here i am again, bitching on this fucking journal, like a piece of shit loser, im the lowest piece of shit on the earth, i fuck everything up, everything, my dad isnt back yet, i dont know whats gonna happen when he gets back, i told him to leave and take that fucking bitch with him and not to bring him back, and he went off on me about not to tell him who to bring into his own house, if he brings that fucking dickhead back im almost positive were gonna fight, we were just about at each others throats and i havnt wanted to hit somebody so bad in a long ass time, well, now the kids are gone, my moms causing all kinds of shit, my dads up to his same old stupid bullshit, and im sitting here being the same old useless piece of shit that i always have been and always will be, its not even fucking worth it, i dont even deserve the breath in my lungs, im sick of everything