Conflicted
[Private, hackable with difficulty, SUPER-LOCKED against Kazuma]
I always said I wanted to remember more about him. About our relationship back home.
I didn't know it would be like this. What does it mean? I... I don't know how to feel. I know these memories have to be real, but they conflict so much with how I feel now...
I remembered... the first time I saw him, I think. I attacked him... why did I do that? I remember knowing that he was a criminal. How is that possible? He doesn't seem like one now, the person I know. But then... I was so certain, I defeated him without a second thought.
My... Alter is much more powerful than I remembered before, too.
And there was another memory. Something fleeting... but I was yelling at him, demanding information... I called him "NP3228." What does that mean? Did I not even know his name? Was that just a number assigned to him?
I hurt him... and I didn't feel any remorse in my memory. He was nothing...
He was my... prisoner? Maybe I didn't help him escape from that place at all... I was the one who captured him in the first place.
If we were enemies back home, what does that mean for us now? Does it change anything? It... shouldn't, but... if we were ever to return... what would happen?
What do I do now?
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My head hurts... I think I need some air. I'm going out for awhile.
I always said I wanted to remember more about him. About our relationship back home.
I didn't know it would be like this. What does it mean? I... I don't know how to feel. I know these memories have to be real, but they conflict so much with how I feel now...
I remembered... the first time I saw him, I think. I attacked him... why did I do that? I remember knowing that he was a criminal. How is that possible? He doesn't seem like one now, the person I know. But then... I was so certain, I defeated him without a second thought.
My... Alter is much more powerful than I remembered before, too.
And there was another memory. Something fleeting... but I was yelling at him, demanding information... I called him "NP3228." What does that mean? Did I not even know his name? Was that just a number assigned to him?
I hurt him... and I didn't feel any remorse in my memory. He was nothing...
He was my... prisoner? Maybe I didn't help him escape from that place at all... I was the one who captured him in the first place.
If we were enemies back home, what does that mean for us now? Does it change anything? It... shouldn't, but... if we were ever to return... what would happen?
What do I do now?
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My head hurts... I think I need some air. I'm going out for awhile.