Ok; Here's an Update.,
I've been talking to a certain someone, and although he's been ranting at me; I've actually taken it as advice.
I won't say who it is. *CoughsjackCoughssdfbjsbga.* But yeah. >_> Everything he's said to me, I've thought about hard. And he's completely right! Geez, it's about time I get over it. Looking back on my last entry, I realize how pathetic I am. And so after having a brief chat with him, this is what I've decided &this is what I've put on my MySpace;
So, those of you who are close to me and know me really well should know that I've been a complete mess since March. There have been times where I've had only a few ups, and plenty of downs; &I started thinking on doing some crazeh stuff. Well; now it all stops. I feel like I've wasted 6 months of my life, just dwelling over him. I've come to realize that it's just not worth it anymore. I'm not going to waste anymore time of my life. I'm going to stop being an emo shit; and be happy for what I got. I've got the greatest friends I could ever ask for. ♥ &really, thats all I need right now. I want to smile more; laugh &be happy. I'm going to stop everything thats been getting me down.
I've still got plans for the future, in which I'm not going to just throw away.
I've moved on.
I mean all of that; I have moved on. I'm over him. He's nothing more than a dear friend to me now. <3 Whereas my mind and heart is on someone else, and has been for a while, just hasn't been shown much. &really, I want to say sorry to him. I haven't been fair to him at all, sending mixed messages and such. But I know what I want, and how I'm feeling now. I'm no longer a sad girl. I'm hoping to share my new happiness; with him.
Yesterday was by far, one of the worst day's ever, right from the moment I woke up. Work just couldn't suck anymore than it did. But then I came home and had this chat, which made me realize and change things; but in a good way. And, after spending the whole day not smiling; I actually went to bed with one. Just from realizing this; I'm already happy. &I'm pretty sure it's going to last this time. The only thing emo you'll get out of me is if my hamster dies. D:
&so to all those reading this [probably you crazeh lot on msn.] I have something to say;
Firstly, a great big huuuuge thank you~! You've helped me through so much, and even though it took some time, you've eventually knocked some sense into me. If I didn't have great friends like you, I wouldn't know where I'd be right now. Love ya' all. <3
Secondly, I'm sorry for all the shit I've put you through. There have been times where I've gone completely depressed, angry, sad, etc.. on you all. &it's not fair on you guys to have to put up with it for about half a year. So, I'm sorry for that.
You remember that girl that was always happy, smiling&laughing, but then she disappered?
OH WAIT! ... I think she's back. ;3
That's right peoples; Manda's back! =D
I won't say who it is. *CoughsjackCoughssdfbjsbga.* But yeah. >_> Everything he's said to me, I've thought about hard. And he's completely right! Geez, it's about time I get over it. Looking back on my last entry, I realize how pathetic I am. And so after having a brief chat with him, this is what I've decided &this is what I've put on my MySpace;
So, those of you who are close to me and know me really well should know that I've been a complete mess since March. There have been times where I've had only a few ups, and plenty of downs; &I started thinking on doing some crazeh stuff. Well; now it all stops. I feel like I've wasted 6 months of my life, just dwelling over him. I've come to realize that it's just not worth it anymore. I'm not going to waste anymore time of my life. I'm going to stop being an emo shit; and be happy for what I got. I've got the greatest friends I could ever ask for. ♥ &really, thats all I need right now. I want to smile more; laugh &be happy. I'm going to stop everything thats been getting me down.
I've still got plans for the future, in which I'm not going to just throw away.
I've moved on.
I mean all of that; I have moved on. I'm over him. He's nothing more than a dear friend to me now. <3 Whereas my mind and heart is on someone else, and has been for a while, just hasn't been shown much. &really, I want to say sorry to him. I haven't been fair to him at all, sending mixed messages and such. But I know what I want, and how I'm feeling now. I'm no longer a sad girl. I'm hoping to share my new happiness; with him.
Yesterday was by far, one of the worst day's ever, right from the moment I woke up. Work just couldn't suck anymore than it did. But then I came home and had this chat, which made me realize and change things; but in a good way. And, after spending the whole day not smiling; I actually went to bed with one. Just from realizing this; I'm already happy. &I'm pretty sure it's going to last this time. The only thing emo you'll get out of me is if my hamster dies. D:
&so to all those reading this [probably you crazeh lot on msn.] I have something to say;
Firstly, a great big huuuuge thank you~! You've helped me through so much, and even though it took some time, you've eventually knocked some sense into me. If I didn't have great friends like you, I wouldn't know where I'd be right now. Love ya' all. <3
Secondly, I'm sorry for all the shit I've put you through. There have been times where I've gone completely depressed, angry, sad, etc.. on you all. &it's not fair on you guys to have to put up with it for about half a year. So, I'm sorry for that.
You remember that girl that was always happy, smiling&laughing, but then she disappered?
OH WAIT! ... I think she's back. ;3
That's right peoples; Manda's back! =D