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Soo lets just say that I really am back to how I was about 4 months ago [just without the tears].
I dunno why though. I thought I was trying hard to get over it, thought I actually moved on and such. I guess it didn't last any longer than a couple of weeks.
I just don't get it.
I suppose it doesn't really help me still trying to do things, in which I never get anything back, never will. Its just, its the only thing thats keeping me happy.
Gawd, even my friend has offered me to join her to get high on Saturday.. been thinkin about it. Still dunno what to do. Never tried it before, and I've been miserable for so long. I guess it'll make me laugh for a few hours, in which i haven't done in ages.
Though someone told me not to, that it won't help at all and that I'll be stupid if I do it. Meh.. me dunno.
So.. I guess all that I can is keep trying, seen as everyone tells me too. But hey, not like its getting me anywhere.
But what else am I suppose to do?
I dunno why though. I thought I was trying hard to get over it, thought I actually moved on and such. I guess it didn't last any longer than a couple of weeks.
I just don't get it.
I suppose it doesn't really help me still trying to do things, in which I never get anything back, never will. Its just, its the only thing thats keeping me happy.
Gawd, even my friend has offered me to join her to get high on Saturday.. been thinkin about it. Still dunno what to do. Never tried it before, and I've been miserable for so long. I guess it'll make me laugh for a few hours, in which i haven't done in ages.
Though someone told me not to, that it won't help at all and that I'll be stupid if I do it. Meh.. me dunno.
So.. I guess all that I can is keep trying, seen as everyone tells me too. But hey, not like its getting me anywhere.
But what else am I suppose to do?