such is life...
well i'm proud to announce that I Adam Holtz will be retiring from trying anymore ... i've decided this recently due to the perfect record that i have for 0 yes's and to many no's to count!!
now after that great news... this is what i'd like to take time out of my day to write about... some good memories... some sad memories... just the past once again in general... sort of like remember when partII continued from the previous one awhile back....
remember when...
the summers seemed so hot but yet so fun? i remember when we'd play baseball everyday in the yard... the whole neighborhood would be there doin the usual. the games would last forever... and as summer went on we'd play backyard football once again with basically the whole neighborhood! these were the times that i wish i had back because right now i don't even know where it went to or why it ended... i can still remember when i was young and i couldn't picture anythin else goin on in my life but just playin outside... playing til it was too dark to see, ridin bikes, playing in the woods, playin in the creek and the rain. life was great there were no worries... no stress... just fun times... but those days u really don't ever find them again past the age of 11 or 12 i'd say...because life goes on and the word "responsibility" hit ya...
remember when... holidays were lived and enjoyed so much that we couldn't hardly wait for them to come around b/c it was the most wonderful time of the year? i know i can remember that feeling... the feeling of the chilled fall air while playing in the leaves while waiting for thanksgiving meal to be served ... or when i just couldn't wait to get up out of bed b/c u knew that christmas was this very day and so i couldn't just sleep in i would get up at like 4:30 b/c i couldn't sleep the night before... had to wake up everyone and get them goin to open the presents... now it's like o it's christmas, huh how bout that? well i'll get some sleep the gifts aren't goin anywhere... plus i think my feeling for christmas went down the tubes b/c it just seemed like another day... nothing special... just a day off from school and a day to sleep in.... or when on that spring morning when i couldn't wait to go find some of those eggs that the easter bunny left behind? that was so much fun seeing who could get the most eggs... now easter is just another day off to me... and another meal basically, i still look to sunrise service at the church but nothin else for this holiday... or halloween when i'd get all dressed up and march on around the neighborhood just waiting to get my candy to eat... now i don't even know it's halloween and don't seem to care bout it. need i bring up valentine's day? makin each one of those valentines special for each person now heck if i care bout valentine's day it's like my worst holiday... but for most the best...
remember when...driving and high school were so far away and u couldn't wait to get there? well those days are long gone and driving is over rated... school was a blow off just like now... but hey it's the future of each one of us right? i know even still today when i drive my car i'm like so i'm driving? whoopdeedoo... but the only thing i enjoy is listening to the system thump and watchin heads turn. remember when prom was supposed to be the best thing u'd ever experience and it was somethin u had to experience? well needless to say it was good but i mean i think it's not all the older people crack it up to be...
remember when...money would seem to go so far when you're young? heck u could get a 20 for christmas and still don't have it spent by march? it just seemed so good to have it in the pocket and just know that it's so much money that u can buy a crapload with it? well now i wish that was the same... heck i work now and i can't grasp where my money goes from pay to pay? it's like i have money? what money? it's just always goin out to bills... gas... and so forth... for some dates... not one expense ever covered here yet...o and u can't forget the good old snack line at school? if u had a quarter back in the day u could get so much good stuff and your peers around you would be like o man he's got a quarter i hope he gets me somethin today... heck now-a-days you're lucky to find anythin under 50 cents and the snack line is longer than ever ... it's just like a normal line for food...
remember when... u thought things would never change and life was so sweet? well i can remember when i thought this ... friends were close... the family farm was still in the name... and i never remember getting so old so fast.... it seemed like i jumped from 12 to 16 then to 18... it's crazy. i can remember taking a look from the highest point on our farm and looking out over everythin and saying this is my heritage and someday i hope that it gets passed down through the generations to mine. but what good was that? it's gone now and i can't go back... heck i can't even go that very point anymore b/c it's not our ground... to this day i won't ever look at my pap the same or talk to him the same... friends were so close back then... i can remember them like nothin... then one day it just all falls apart like anythin else... people move away... find "cool" friends and forget bout u... or u just never see or hear from them again... today i see this happening each day... it's come to my attention that it's now i will know who's gonna basically be around for life and who is gettin out of mine... it's just so hard to find yourself thinking bout this when only the other day u were just playing a game with them or at their house everyday laughin it up then the next thing u know it... u don't even see them anymore due to the change in times... jobs... college... to me it's just not right i think college should be the best years of your life; because it is in these years that u will have your last chances to enjoy your life before u have to work the rest of your life day in and day out just to get by and have a roof to live under... i wish i could remember when i had a week of nothin but fun...
remember when... those relatives u thought would be around forever passed away? i remember when this first hit me at the age of like 7 when my great grandpap died... i thought he'd aways be there... we'd go visit him from day to day... cut his grass explore his huge house and garage and just look at all the past artifacts that were so cool to ponder on... and then sippin down those root beer floats from my great grandma... they'd give me a dollar and tell me to save it... but knowing that it would be used for some candy i wanted... now today i look back and say i barely knew these people? my great grandpap died and as til this day i can still hear him laugh and see him smile... the one memory that i will always have from him and that's when he took me up to the highest point on the farm in his old cavelier... and we talked about school and everythin... he gave some great advice... and i will never know another person who worked so hard for things throughout life and succeeded... and that's why he lived to be a 100... as for my great grandma... well she's in a home and i never stop in and see her b/c she don't remember anyone anymore ... it's just hard to see her like that... and then knowing that she forgot bout ya do to old age....i just wish my great grandpap was around to see what he worked for forever and passed it down to his son ( my grandpap) just so he could sell it to some dickhead when he got it for nothing... how cruel is that? i know i feel for him... it's just kinda pointless to know how hard he worked b/c i will never be able show my kids what my Great grandpap did for the family... it hurts... believe me... u have to go through somethin like this to know...
remember when... and the stories will continue on through each day... but really we don't know what they meant until they are gone... it's sad but true this saying is the most true and honest statement made in life " u don't know what you've got til it's gone"... and today i stil try to keep that in my mind... b/c the past is unbearable and it's so hard not to live in it when it's all u knew... i just wish i could live each day for somethin and take a piece of it with me through each and everyother day that i'm granted til i die... it's so hard to b/c the past will always affect my life... i won't forget it ever...
"and we'll remember when..."
now after that great news... this is what i'd like to take time out of my day to write about... some good memories... some sad memories... just the past once again in general... sort of like remember when partII continued from the previous one awhile back....
remember when...
the summers seemed so hot but yet so fun? i remember when we'd play baseball everyday in the yard... the whole neighborhood would be there doin the usual. the games would last forever... and as summer went on we'd play backyard football once again with basically the whole neighborhood! these were the times that i wish i had back because right now i don't even know where it went to or why it ended... i can still remember when i was young and i couldn't picture anythin else goin on in my life but just playin outside... playing til it was too dark to see, ridin bikes, playing in the woods, playin in the creek and the rain. life was great there were no worries... no stress... just fun times... but those days u really don't ever find them again past the age of 11 or 12 i'd say...because life goes on and the word "responsibility" hit ya...
remember when... holidays were lived and enjoyed so much that we couldn't hardly wait for them to come around b/c it was the most wonderful time of the year? i know i can remember that feeling... the feeling of the chilled fall air while playing in the leaves while waiting for thanksgiving meal to be served ... or when i just couldn't wait to get up out of bed b/c u knew that christmas was this very day and so i couldn't just sleep in i would get up at like 4:30 b/c i couldn't sleep the night before... had to wake up everyone and get them goin to open the presents... now it's like o it's christmas, huh how bout that? well i'll get some sleep the gifts aren't goin anywhere... plus i think my feeling for christmas went down the tubes b/c it just seemed like another day... nothing special... just a day off from school and a day to sleep in.... or when on that spring morning when i couldn't wait to go find some of those eggs that the easter bunny left behind? that was so much fun seeing who could get the most eggs... now easter is just another day off to me... and another meal basically, i still look to sunrise service at the church but nothin else for this holiday... or halloween when i'd get all dressed up and march on around the neighborhood just waiting to get my candy to eat... now i don't even know it's halloween and don't seem to care bout it. need i bring up valentine's day? makin each one of those valentines special for each person now heck if i care bout valentine's day it's like my worst holiday... but for most the best...
remember when...driving and high school were so far away and u couldn't wait to get there? well those days are long gone and driving is over rated... school was a blow off just like now... but hey it's the future of each one of us right? i know even still today when i drive my car i'm like so i'm driving? whoopdeedoo... but the only thing i enjoy is listening to the system thump and watchin heads turn. remember when prom was supposed to be the best thing u'd ever experience and it was somethin u had to experience? well needless to say it was good but i mean i think it's not all the older people crack it up to be...
remember when...money would seem to go so far when you're young? heck u could get a 20 for christmas and still don't have it spent by march? it just seemed so good to have it in the pocket and just know that it's so much money that u can buy a crapload with it? well now i wish that was the same... heck i work now and i can't grasp where my money goes from pay to pay? it's like i have money? what money? it's just always goin out to bills... gas... and so forth... for some dates... not one expense ever covered here yet...o and u can't forget the good old snack line at school? if u had a quarter back in the day u could get so much good stuff and your peers around you would be like o man he's got a quarter i hope he gets me somethin today... heck now-a-days you're lucky to find anythin under 50 cents and the snack line is longer than ever ... it's just like a normal line for food...
remember when... u thought things would never change and life was so sweet? well i can remember when i thought this ... friends were close... the family farm was still in the name... and i never remember getting so old so fast.... it seemed like i jumped from 12 to 16 then to 18... it's crazy. i can remember taking a look from the highest point on our farm and looking out over everythin and saying this is my heritage and someday i hope that it gets passed down through the generations to mine. but what good was that? it's gone now and i can't go back... heck i can't even go that very point anymore b/c it's not our ground... to this day i won't ever look at my pap the same or talk to him the same... friends were so close back then... i can remember them like nothin... then one day it just all falls apart like anythin else... people move away... find "cool" friends and forget bout u... or u just never see or hear from them again... today i see this happening each day... it's come to my attention that it's now i will know who's gonna basically be around for life and who is gettin out of mine... it's just so hard to find yourself thinking bout this when only the other day u were just playing a game with them or at their house everyday laughin it up then the next thing u know it... u don't even see them anymore due to the change in times... jobs... college... to me it's just not right i think college should be the best years of your life; because it is in these years that u will have your last chances to enjoy your life before u have to work the rest of your life day in and day out just to get by and have a roof to live under... i wish i could remember when i had a week of nothin but fun...
remember when... those relatives u thought would be around forever passed away? i remember when this first hit me at the age of like 7 when my great grandpap died... i thought he'd aways be there... we'd go visit him from day to day... cut his grass explore his huge house and garage and just look at all the past artifacts that were so cool to ponder on... and then sippin down those root beer floats from my great grandma... they'd give me a dollar and tell me to save it... but knowing that it would be used for some candy i wanted... now today i look back and say i barely knew these people? my great grandpap died and as til this day i can still hear him laugh and see him smile... the one memory that i will always have from him and that's when he took me up to the highest point on the farm in his old cavelier... and we talked about school and everythin... he gave some great advice... and i will never know another person who worked so hard for things throughout life and succeeded... and that's why he lived to be a 100... as for my great grandma... well she's in a home and i never stop in and see her b/c she don't remember anyone anymore ... it's just hard to see her like that... and then knowing that she forgot bout ya do to old age....i just wish my great grandpap was around to see what he worked for forever and passed it down to his son ( my grandpap) just so he could sell it to some dickhead when he got it for nothing... how cruel is that? i know i feel for him... it's just kinda pointless to know how hard he worked b/c i will never be able show my kids what my Great grandpap did for the family... it hurts... believe me... u have to go through somethin like this to know...
remember when... and the stories will continue on through each day... but really we don't know what they meant until they are gone... it's sad but true this saying is the most true and honest statement made in life " u don't know what you've got til it's gone"... and today i stil try to keep that in my mind... b/c the past is unbearable and it's so hard not to live in it when it's all u knew... i just wish i could live each day for somethin and take a piece of it with me through each and everyother day that i'm granted til i die... it's so hard to b/c the past will always affect my life... i won't forget it ever...
"and we'll remember when..."