"i tried to feel it guilt wouldnt come to me blood soiled pillows sheets writhing in agony"
so im waiting around to go to school. i wont be online fr a while sorry brooke ill try but your ass better call me this weekend or that whole naked honey bear chuck e cheese thing will come true. last night hmmm oh yeah i got into a snowball fight with my dad and he threw one at me and went offbalance and fell into the street. that was funny stuff. my writers block seems to have gone away i wrote a couple of new things yesterday ill post them whenever. and i was happy i finally got one of those razor blades out i just hope i wont be tempted to use it. i stabbed myself in the thumb. it hurt. hmmmm i dont want to go to school today but ill bar it its better than after school i have to go home again and hes going to be there. i think i get to go to johns saturday. thats really cool. him and my grandparents are the only family members there for me. my nuts really itch hold on.ahhh better. i got one of the new bright eyes cds thanx em its cool. i made my grandma listen to it and she liked it then i put in from autumn to ashes and i thought she was gonna have a siezure. dude i wanna be epeleptic thad be fun pass the cheese *fals on ground and has convulsion* hahahaha wow im bored but i suppose its better than depressed we will see how long that will last. well im goin to school so later kids. comment please.