The Band Is (Could be in my wildest dreams) Back Together
On Alison's insistence, I opened a MySpace account. I added her and began bowsing her flizst, as folk are wont to do. Mixed in among her friends, most of whom I know, are some old friends form Bard. Specifically, Katie and Bev. In Al and me first year we shared a room, Bev lived opposite and just down the hall, and Katie lived one floor bleow Bev with her crazy roomate LIs, who tranfered during the winter break. We were tight friends, and by April of 2000 Bev was my girlfriend. Skip ahead a year: I was a beer-gin-vodka-whisky-pot-etc. sodden mess, Bev wasn't too much better, katie had had it with both of us, and Al was trying to just be there in additon to dealign with BS from the school which I needn't rehash. It was pretty much hell there at the end of sophmore year. Junior year I was home doing pretty much the same thing (although miraculously, I was holding a job), Katie was doing a year abroad in Spain, Al was at another school up in Massachusettes, and Bev was still at Bard, doing god knows what.
So now, in a strange, round about ,and virtually nonexistent, way, the band is back together.
I feel weird. I loved all three of them very much in different ways and for different reasons, and it always hurt that we fell out. It was largely my fault, not that there was anything I could have done about it it the time, and I always felt bad about it. By 2001 I hated Bev, I think we hated eachother, but eh. I still feel badly about it. I really don't know what I feel about the whole thing. I'm certainly curious to see what became of them (and a few others as well), but really, I would like to get the band back together. i'm sentimental like that. While that second year was possibly the worst period of my life (there are several bits vying for that august position), the first is some of the best. If I had to spend eternity in a place, that would be it: sitting in our filthy dorm room, smoking pot, drinking beer, talking about the nature of reality, and laughing.
On the other hand, I have the feeling that we've all out grown it now. Not that we can't have fun, or even do just those things occasionally, but that the sense of freshness, of safety, of danger - that the innocence, is gone.
So now, in a strange, round about ,and virtually nonexistent, way, the band is back together.
I feel weird. I loved all three of them very much in different ways and for different reasons, and it always hurt that we fell out. It was largely my fault, not that there was anything I could have done about it it the time, and I always felt bad about it. By 2001 I hated Bev, I think we hated eachother, but eh. I still feel badly about it. I really don't know what I feel about the whole thing. I'm certainly curious to see what became of them (and a few others as well), but really, I would like to get the band back together. i'm sentimental like that. While that second year was possibly the worst period of my life (there are several bits vying for that august position), the first is some of the best. If I had to spend eternity in a place, that would be it: sitting in our filthy dorm room, smoking pot, drinking beer, talking about the nature of reality, and laughing.
On the other hand, I have the feeling that we've all out grown it now. Not that we can't have fun, or even do just those things occasionally, but that the sense of freshness, of safety, of danger - that the innocence, is gone.