Why are you being so nice?
My internet was fucking up all morning. D had said that he was going to come over yesterday to get some more of his stuff, but he was not able to. He came over earlier to look at my computer and get the stuff he needed. It hurt so bad. I tried as hard as I fucking could to not cry around him. He was being so nice. Why couldn't he have been nice to me before? He fixed the problem to my computer then went to the gym. After he leaves the gym he is suppossed to come back to grab his stuff. He was upset that I didn't call him on his bday. It was the 14th. I told him that I didn't think that he wanted to hear from me, because the day before he was over hear and stormed off saying that he was going to Abilene without saying bye. It does hurt for him to be nice to me now. I just think how can he be so nice now? How I just don't get it. I definitly need to move to Houston, I have got to get away. I need to go to a place where there are no memories to fuck with my mind. I look at him as he is being nice, and I think about how mean he was, and how messed up we were together. I should have saved myself a hell of a lot of pain years ago. I guess that is my mistake. It hurts to see the nice side come out, maybe because I was so used to seeing the other side of him. I don't know. Fuck this really fucking sucks.