torn
so im torn between two very different emotions. on one hand, things are going awesomely in one part of my life where on the other i feel so not in control and that scares me. dont get me wrong, im usually not a controling person. but i think its because the situation involves emotions, mostly emotions owned by people i care about. i dont like not being able to help. i hate not knowing what to do about it. i just want it to go away but its not going anywhere anytime soon. *sigh*
but the fact that i am happy does help. there are times when i miss how i felt before, many times. but its a relief to know i can be happy without certian things in my life. and it hasnt been long, but i think its good for me. lets hope everything works out for the best. and i dont mess another thing up:) i tend to screw myself over at times. live and learn eh.
but the fact that i am happy does help. there are times when i miss how i felt before, many times. but its a relief to know i can be happy without certian things in my life. and it hasnt been long, but i think its good for me. lets hope everything works out for the best. and i dont mess another thing up:) i tend to screw myself over at times. live and learn eh.