Taken from Kelly :)
My Year in Review: Random Excerpts from my eljay of each month from 2005.
January:
Well my New Years Eve wasn't bad, but it could have been better, i had to watch everyone else get drunk cus i couldnt have anything except for one toast at 12 because of the meds im on.. ugh! I did, however, get to spend it with some of my favorite people. I was worn out so i hit the sack about...probably 1. I got random calls and texts all night lol and they kept waking me up. Yesterday morning when i woke up Daddy and Erik went to get us all breakfast. After Lauren, Philip and Erik left I took a shower and got ready. Me and Daddy went Car shopping but Momma couldnt come cus she had to stay home just in case we were'nt home in time to take Sis to work. We didn't expect to find anything, but we did :). YAY! IM NOW THE PROUD OWNER OF A 2003 ECLIPSE! hehe, but imma miss my old car, gosh i loved that car, i really did. So after we purchased the car, me momma and daddy went up to Redbowl to see Sis and to sit in Jims section as promised..lol I know it may sound wierd..but i kinda miss that place..lol I haven't worked since last weekend..everyone was happy to see me okay too, even Simon came over and was like "you're doing okay" and i was like "yeah i feel alot better" and he goes "okay good"..i was like "wow!". After Red Bowl i came home and just layed around the rest of the night..i still have some stiffness in my upper back and neck :/..i needa massage lol. Nina came by last night too! i love that girl! Well imma go take a shower..and take it easy my last day before going back to school..ugh that sucks..lol have a wonderful day everyone!
<3 Mandea
p.s...you never feel the intensity of a sisterly bond until you're scared shitless sitting in the back of an ambulance and you get to hold eachother :) I love you Sis!
February:
Today im feeling very tired..almost exhausted. I got to bed last night at about 1..i was up at 5:15, the last couple minutes of my shower were freezing cold. I did make it to school on time..didnt think me and nina would this morning, but we did. In psychology we watched a movie so iw ent to sleep, in Med. Science we went to Metro and me and Dani went to the Art room. In English i slept and then in government i didnt do really anythign except my warmup and then i went to teh auditorium for that accuplacer test info thing. We got out a few minutes early, i went home and me and mom went to the eye doctors. I got cute new frames that im very excited about..they have pink in them, yay..but theyre a little different than im used to wearing..although i never wear my glasses lol. After that we went through Wendys drive threw then we came home, i eat my wendys..very yum and then i got ready for work. There were so many people at Redbowl tonigth for our one year celebration/chinese new year. I only had to work for about 2 hours then i had some food with Aura before going home. Then i came home, read a bit in 'The Wedding' and now im online..bored and i need to clean my room, so thats what im going to go do, good night yall.
xoxo Mandea
March:
I feel like im being pulled in so many directions and i hate it. Something finally sank in today that ive been told hundreds of times, "people only do to you what you allow them to do."
I dont like when ppl lie and i dont like cocky ppl, thats an awful combination. I could get all mad, yell and scream at someone and tell them how gay they are but instead, i think ill just not deal with it. Ive said so many times "im over it", but this time im serious. Im done. I give up, my pride is worth more than that to me.
Im tired of letting what other ppl think and say influence more than the ones that care about me most.
April:
Well its been a good week, but a rough week at the same time.
Gosh..im counting down the days til graduation.
Works going well, i get my first paycheck tonight! YAY MONEY MONEY MONEEEEEY!.
I switched my winter and summer clothes out today, yay its that time of year!
Im excited about Prom..i hope its a great night.
Im contemplating getting subs..but im not positive yet, but im pretty sure..hmmm?
alright..gotta go get ready for work. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
May:
yay only 2 more days until star wars is released, haha im so excited to see it!
Well sunday was good. I got up and went out to eat with my dad and sis to cracker barrel, it was delicious. Then we came home and i cleaned my room, my bathroom, and the computer room. I was on a roll! Then i went to work. Work was cool i guess, not too boring and nina came to visit!! yay!
Yesterday I went to school, then came home and layed out for a bout a half an hour. Then i picked up Erica and we went to Old Navy and then to Birkdale to stop by CafeMia. Matt and Liz gave us free smoothies, i got a peachy banana dream and it was delicious. Then Erica and I decided to walk around for a bit. We ran into Dave taking pictures and talked to him for a few then went back to CafeMia to say bye. Then Erica and I went to Walmart and I found the cutest bed set, i want it! Then we picked up my sis and us 3 went to Redbowl to eat, yum my seaweed salad was soooo good. Then we dropped off Erica and went home for a bit. Then i went over to corts for a few, i got to see Dev :), then we went to BiLo and then i dropped her off. In the short time i was over there i experienced like the coolest thing i've ever seen...like seriously.
This morning Lindsey and I got to school ontime at 8 and I realized i had to wear my clinical outfit, danielle was wearing hers and informed me we had to have them on, so i came back here to change..and i really dont wanna go to first block now so i thought i'd update a bit.
Well hope everyone has a nice day!
June:
yay only one more day of school!!
I have to work alll weekend but luckily i have the whole next two weeks off! yay!!!
okay..ill write more later, i got lots to say :).
Later Loves.
July:
Well, we finally got our computer up and running in the apartment.
Omg, it is so freaking cute. Our living room furniture is so chic, everyone should be jealous...lol. We have some Marilyn pictures up and it all just ties in really nicely together. I still have some shelves and little stuff to put up in my room, but for the most part it is finished.
I got a digital camera with a picture printer, a giftcard to BiLo, and lots of money for my birthday! I was so excited about the camera, even though digital cameras are like so two years ago..lol, I still wanted one of my own.
Tonight we had Outback for my birthday dinner. It was Mom, Dad, Sis, Christy, Dev and I that went. I love Outback, but for some reason I just wasn't feeling it all that much tonight.
Christy and I are getting our tattoos soon, I'm excited. I've decided not to get my tongue pierced, because one I don't want people to get the wrong idea (not trying to offend people who have them), and two of all the problems they can cause with your teeth and stuff.
On my birthday I got so many "Happy Birthday" calls, some of them I expected and most of them I felt good about, however, when I got to thinking about it, some people I haven't talked to since school let out, why call me now, on my birthday? If you really miss me like you say you do then why not call on a day that you're not expected to, why not call a day when you have no reason to, when you just want to talk.
Dev got a new job! I'm so excited for him and very proud of him.
Everytime I look into his eyes I can't help but smile, they're addicting. There is something about him that draws me in and holds me close. There's something about him that tells me he'll protect me. I love it when he gives me forehead kisses, I love it when we wake up beside eachother and he'll brush my hair outta my face and kiss me, I love it when he randomly says "I love you". He's great. He's one of those rare catches that when ya catch 'em ya gotta hold on to 'em. I have been in love once before, but never like this. It really is something beautiful and I'm so grateful for having him in my life.
Okay, okay. If that's too sappy for ya, too bad..I'm in love, I can't help it.
I want to stop using so much internet slang, I'm too used to it.
Later ya'll.
August:
Today has definitely been one of those lounge-around-in-your-pajama-pants-all-day days. Last night I ended up not getting to bed until around 4. Dev came over at about 2 and we talked and hung out and stuff :). It was great. He surprised me. We were on the phone and he said "Answer your day" and I was like "what" and went and got the door and he was standing there! It was like straight out of a movie lol.
I'm tired of people being immature. Grow up.
I found something out last night that's rather funny. I doubt they know that I know, but it all makes sense now. Skank Ass.
Whew, it's weird, Devin being at work all day. I miss him.
hehe, I'm so freaking happy right now. I mean like I have a headache right this second, but when I think about all the things going on in my life, I'm very blessed and thankful for everything. I just need a job and I'll be set...lol but hey, I love not having a job right now.
I wonder what Dev and I will do tonight?...I wanted to go to a Movie but Idk if I'll want to sit through one now. Maybe we'll grab dinner and just cuddle after. Sounds Nice :).
Bye Ya'll.
September:
This morning my day started out at around 5 in the morning. I woke up, woke Dev up and we went outside to smoke. He went back to bed and I took a shower. After my shower I got ready, got him up and we left for work at the same time. We were a little off schedule..opps. Luckily, traffic on Harris wasn't bad this morning and I still made it to work early, I hope Dev did too!
I worked from 7-12. We started getting our merchandise in today, we had to unload 1200 boxes...yeah my arms are sore and I think I pulled a muscle in my butt..haha. I left there at 12:15 and had to rush to school to make it in class by 1. I made it on time, yay! However, I was extremely irritated and freaking out to my mom(on the phone) on the way to school because I didn't have time to go home and change and eat...but it all worked out fine. I had a test in precal so I got out about 15 minutes early and went to the coffee shop on campus. I didn't know that they didn't take Debit cards and had only 3 dollars and some odd change in my wallet, so the cashier spotted me some change, that was very nice of her :). So I tooke my iced latte to my next class with me and things started to look up- we were watching a movie in that class today! Then it was time to go to English, on friday the teacher wasn't there when the bell rung so we all left. Today the bell rings, no teacher, and a women walks in and asks if we were Professor Lockwood's students..we said yes and she told us that he was out ill, so yay we got to go home!
I'm hungry! I haven't gotten to eat since my nutrigrain bar this morning..hmm I wonder what I want to make.
Last night at Dev's church the preacher was talking about how we should always forgive people for the wrong they do to us. Now I have always been one of those people who have forgiven so easily and lets things roll of my sholders fairly easier than most people do, I don't like to hold grudges and because of that I've been told many a time that I let people walk all over me..but I just looked at it as..why stress over it and not just let it go? I felt alot better when the preacher was saying that that is what we should do, my favorite part of the sermon was when he said "How can we expect god to forgive us of all our sins if we cannot forgive others". Very true. Now, my beliefs do greatly differ in some aspects of the Catholic church, but I definitely have full faith in god and jesus.
Today I was just thinking..and I realized how many roles everyone has. I mean I know alot of people don't take the time to consider it, but I was bored. I realized..Im a daughter, a sister, a girlfriend, a cousin, a niece, a granddaughter, a friend, a roommate, a best friend, an inspiration, a full time student, a part time employee, a role model,etc. I try to be the best I can in everyone role that I play in life, I want to make the most of it.
Im starting to feel older. Like when I first moved out I still felt the same, not any older, just me having my own apartment. Now I feel more independent, I feel like I'm actually out on my own. I'm out in the realworld and doing adult things. I'm not a child anymore. In a way its sad..but in a lot of ways I love it. I look at 5 years ago, and I had just became a teenager..couldn't wait to get through my last year of middle school and get to highschool. I was still so naieve(sp?). I've been through so much in the last 5 years and I've grown up so much too. I've had happy, unforgettable memories and I've had memories that are sad and that I'd rather forget. Then I think 5 years from now. I'll be out of college, possibly married, possibly a mom, hopefully I'll have a full time job..Im curious to see how my life will be then. I would have never imagined my life would be like it is now, but I love it. I couldn't ask for a better family, a better boyfriend, or better friends.
Haha..I got off on a tangent.
This week is Rush..Sororities just aren't my thing. Not that there's anything wrong with them. Plus, I just don't have the time between work, school and family time.
Yesterday was september 11th, rememberance day, and you're supposed to leave your lights on all day. Funny thing is I didn't even remember that it was 9/11 until about 6:30 last night...however earlier that day when Dev and I were driving to my apartment I realized my lights were still on from the night before, normally I would have told Devin to turn them off but I just didnt worry about it and just left them on..it was just wierd how my lights were on all day yesterday when normally i would have turned them off and then come to find out, duh its rememberance day! I was glad I had left them on.
Devin and I are getting a dog! Not right away, but by next summer! Im so excited!!
Okay, Im going to go eat, finally! lol
<3
October:
So this has been a relatively relaxing week. I actually had 3 days in a row of work off...but of course I had class. I don't even remember the last day where I actually had no school or no work. Hopefully that day is comming soon?
Gosh I need to go to the grocery store, reaaaaaaaaal bad lol.
Yay! I get my hair done Saturday..finally getting rid of these damn roots.
Ugh my apartment is messy and it needs cleaned bad. Christy and I haven't had any time in the last 2 weeks to clean it.
Tomorrow night Dev and I are doing something special. Then we're going to start saving up, forreal this time.
okay all these are random..I just wrote down what I was thinking...lol
Yes! I get to sleep in tomorrow!
Night <3's.
November:
I got some cute as hell high-heeled cowboy boots today, i love them.
I spent some nice quality time with devin. It was wonderful.
All my classes were incredibly easy today.
I didnt have to go into work today.
Devin is coming over in the morning and we're going to fix breakfast together before i have to go to class. I'm excited.
Random, I know.
Night.
December:
So only a few more days until Christmas...I can't tell you how excited I am.
You know when you realize something about yourself that you don't like and decide you want to change it? Well yesterday was one of those days. I realized how selfish I can be sometimes and whats its done to the people I care about at one time or another. Definitely have to work on it.
Can you remember everything you got from Santa ever since you were little? My sister and I were trying and we can remember almost every year. Haha I can also remember always picking out my favorite pair of jamies at the time and wearing those to bed on Christmas eve so that I would look awesome in Christmas morning pictures..haha yeap, thats me.
I still have a tiny bit of Christmas shopping to do...oh momma would not be proud if she knew that lol. My moms always taught me to get it all done before December. She's been done since around Thanksgiving.
I wish I wasn't so lazy. I need another job because I don't like mine and everytime I go in I end up in a bad mood. I might have to wake up at 4:30 am on Christmas Eve to go to work, what bullshit. I most definitely should have turned my two weeks in two weeks ago. Oh well, I can stick it out I guess.
Well I got to hang out with some of my West Meck friends the other night! It was alot of fun! We went to Sports Page where we saw Emily too. Then we came back to my apartment and got drunk and played sharades(sp?). It was so much fun. I was pretty drunk and I had trouble acting things out because I would laugh so hard I would just fall on the floor. haha. It was great seeing everyone.
My mom bought a gingerbread house for Dev and I to make. It'll be fun.
Yesterday my mom bought me Mr and Mrs Smith. I watched it last night when Dev had to go to work. It was actually a really good movie. When it came out in theaters I was boycotting because of it breaking up Ben and Jen's marriage. Then I was watching the movie last night and I think my views were affected..haha. I just realized that if it makes Brad happier to be with Angelina then he should be because otherwise he would be unhappy with Jen and that would make Jen unhappy too. Um yeah..anyway.
When people say that you gain weight when you quit smoking, they're not joking. I am not making any new years resolutions because I never keep them and I get disappointed in myself so this year I am not making any. I'll just do things to do things, not because it's my new years resolution. For example, eating out less and going to the gym.
I am excited to start going to CCHS, but I am nervous too. I won't know annnnnnnnnyone, but hey, it's a fresh start. No one knows me so I can make a whole new impression then on the people who I have know since elementary, middle, or high school.
Yesterday I also realized that sometimes I am in too much of a hurry to grow up and that I need to just enjoy the ride a little more.
I wish I could be more of my old bubbly self. I can see it starting to come out.
Alright, time to check my grades. So far I have made an A in Advanced English, a B in pre cal and a C in Visual Arts. I am upset about the C, but can't be too upset because I didn't really go to class..lol.
Have a great day!
xoxo
The End!
I learned alot this year. I laughed at times, I cried at times, I was extremely happy at times and I was extremely worried or sad at times, but 2005 proved to be a great year for me. My parents bought me my beautiful car, I grew up a little bit, I graduated from highschool, I met the love of my life!, I started college, I choose a career path and I moved out on my own.
Sometimes you have to stop and step back and really take a long at your life so that you don't take all of your blessings for granted.
Here's to 2006, may it be even better!