Disney World was amazing
as always, and i'll post pics as soon as their developed.
i think i'm going to go internship there spring semester if i dont make their dance auditions...
:) either way around i'll be happy!
so blah blah, a lots happened but this is something i posted on myspace.com yesterday and its still totally how i feel, felt, and will continue to feel...
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so confused
its soo rare that i get in these confused moods.
i dont know what i want in life.
tomorrow im looking at this house with my two friends that we're more than likely going to get, its in the montrose area or something like that, i checked it out yesterday and its cute and all...but i dont wanna live in this city forever.
so what am i going to do when i graduate?
i have so many dreams and ambitions i dont know which to chase after, and time is coming close that i have to choose.
the more and more i think about it...the more and more i know california is for me.
but then theres London and its passion.
surfing, hollywood, performing, fashion = california
soccer, passion, dreams, fifa, fashion, guys = london
dancing, Disney World, surfing = orlando
i want to play soccer.
i want to be an awesome surfer.
i want to make it as an entertainer whether it be dance or acting.
i want to be in the surf or high fashion industry.
i want to dance @ Disney World.
each dream determines a different locale.
and then theres Love.
i love Nathan. i've realized it.
i want him back terribly.
i've only met one other guy who somewhat measures up to him...and then met his fiance.
Nathan is amazing, of course. ::deep breath::
*Nathan...ugh, a lot would make sense if he and i were together...i've felt so unconnected for a whole year now, conveniantly its been a year since we've been broken up.
i am still in so much love with him...with you...
or is this completely bogus?
bc then theres those crushes [yes at 22] that seem to make so much sense.
i think i'm going to go internship there spring semester if i dont make their dance auditions...
:) either way around i'll be happy!
so blah blah, a lots happened but this is something i posted on myspace.com yesterday and its still totally how i feel, felt, and will continue to feel...
***********************
so confused
its soo rare that i get in these confused moods.
i dont know what i want in life.
tomorrow im looking at this house with my two friends that we're more than likely going to get, its in the montrose area or something like that, i checked it out yesterday and its cute and all...but i dont wanna live in this city forever.
so what am i going to do when i graduate?
i have so many dreams and ambitions i dont know which to chase after, and time is coming close that i have to choose.
the more and more i think about it...the more and more i know california is for me.
but then theres London and its passion.
surfing, hollywood, performing, fashion = california
soccer, passion, dreams, fifa, fashion, guys = london
dancing, Disney World, surfing = orlando
i want to play soccer.
i want to be an awesome surfer.
i want to make it as an entertainer whether it be dance or acting.
i want to be in the surf or high fashion industry.
i want to dance @ Disney World.
each dream determines a different locale.
and then theres Love.
i love Nathan. i've realized it.
i want him back terribly.
i've only met one other guy who somewhat measures up to him...and then met his fiance.
Nathan is amazing, of course. ::deep breath::
*Nathan...ugh, a lot would make sense if he and i were together...i've felt so unconnected for a whole year now, conveniantly its been a year since we've been broken up.
i am still in so much love with him...with you...
or is this completely bogus?
bc then theres those crushes [yes at 22] that seem to make so much sense.