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I feel like every time I come on here I've let far too much time pass from my last entry.
Well I made it. I'm here in the city of Angels. But not pursing my dreams. Now how did that happen? I'm stuck in a "job". You know, one of those jobs I told myself I would never end up having. Cubicle, pushing papers, staring at a computer...the tasks of a career.
I am fortunate in many aspects. I have a family out here. That's for sure. However, there is some desire just raging to get out. It's trying desperately to push through me and it drives me krazy because I have no idea what it is that is trying to get out. It's as if I will never be satisfied. I'm not exactly sure how or what to do. But I just want my life to be significant. I guess that's what almost everyone desires isn't it?
I don't really want to be famous, I just want to be known. I want to do something spectacular that people are driven themselves to follow their own shooting star. I'm just at a loss for what that is...or where the hell my star is and why hasn't it taken off yet?
People always talk about being at a crossroad in life. The way I look at it is, they should be thankful they have roads to choose from. I feel like I'm on a single path, that's not very well light up, and my shoes are untied and on the wrong feet because it's starting to get hard to walk.
I suppose one of the beauty's of life is being able to SEARCH for those other roads. That I guess will determine how bad you want to be significant...You're gunna have to fall before you rise, and crawl before you fly.
Well I made it. I'm here in the city of Angels. But not pursing my dreams. Now how did that happen? I'm stuck in a "job". You know, one of those jobs I told myself I would never end up having. Cubicle, pushing papers, staring at a computer...the tasks of a career.
I am fortunate in many aspects. I have a family out here. That's for sure. However, there is some desire just raging to get out. It's trying desperately to push through me and it drives me krazy because I have no idea what it is that is trying to get out. It's as if I will never be satisfied. I'm not exactly sure how or what to do. But I just want my life to be significant. I guess that's what almost everyone desires isn't it?
I don't really want to be famous, I just want to be known. I want to do something spectacular that people are driven themselves to follow their own shooting star. I'm just at a loss for what that is...or where the hell my star is and why hasn't it taken off yet?
People always talk about being at a crossroad in life. The way I look at it is, they should be thankful they have roads to choose from. I feel like I'm on a single path, that's not very well light up, and my shoes are untied and on the wrong feet because it's starting to get hard to walk.
I suppose one of the beauty's of life is being able to SEARCH for those other roads. That I guess will determine how bad you want to be significant...You're gunna have to fall before you rise, and crawl before you fly.