okey dokey
well in the time since my last entry we have gotten our internet back and i can now do these damned things at my house.... i have managed to mess up every good thing i have... and plus to top it all off... me and Evan broke up...
yeah, the one person who i wished i would be together with forever has kinda put knots in my stomach for the past week or so since it happened... i figured we were more like friends than boyfriend/girlfriend... so i metnioned it to him and i guess i was hoping for more than i knew i'd get out of that... b/c he agreed with me instead of saying we could work on it (like i hoped he would say)... so instead he agrees and says "oh my god... i think thats how it is too." and as much as it killed me to say it, i said "well i dont mind being friends if you dont." and i kinda left it at that, and he said "yeah i think that would be best" and i was almost about to start crying... i mean even now if i think about it i just want ot grab him and kiss him and then slap him and say "DAMNIT! I DIDNT WANT TO LOSE YOU!" *haha* but yea with my shy self, it's highly doubted... yeah i hung out with him today... and had a stick war. it was ok but it was kinda wierd. but oh well... i guess shit happens.
anywho...
i must mention something about the AWESOME SevenFootSeany!! he's the coolest! he's my favorite! *i luv him with all the boogies in my nose!* lol (inside joke)
yeah my christmas was sucky.... i got a few things and i mean the presents dont even matter to me, but i mean the one person who i wanted to at least see or get soemthing out of was my dad... and guess who was the one person who didnt bother... *shrugs it off*... oh well... so instead i called him up and said "hey daddy, weren't you going to get me a cell phone?" and he replied "yeah but i mean your mom said you wanted a movie..." and i'm trying to see how he can compare the two, and so i said "can i just have the money?!" i was pretty angered by this point... so i got $60 bucks out of him...
my new year's was great! i spent it with evan, sparky, sierra, kasey, and joseph. we were all at sparky's aunt's house at her party. we had a grand ole time
hopefully with the coming of '05 things will get better!
i'm keeping my chin up
"when the road gets bumpy,
don't ya be a grumpy,
just smile, smile, smile and be happy!
don't wear a long face,
it's never in style,
be optimistic, and smile!"
*i'm trying :)*
<3 GaRbAgE <3
yeah, the one person who i wished i would be together with forever has kinda put knots in my stomach for the past week or so since it happened... i figured we were more like friends than boyfriend/girlfriend... so i metnioned it to him and i guess i was hoping for more than i knew i'd get out of that... b/c he agreed with me instead of saying we could work on it (like i hoped he would say)... so instead he agrees and says "oh my god... i think thats how it is too." and as much as it killed me to say it, i said "well i dont mind being friends if you dont." and i kinda left it at that, and he said "yeah i think that would be best" and i was almost about to start crying... i mean even now if i think about it i just want ot grab him and kiss him and then slap him and say "DAMNIT! I DIDNT WANT TO LOSE YOU!" *haha* but yea with my shy self, it's highly doubted... yeah i hung out with him today... and had a stick war. it was ok but it was kinda wierd. but oh well... i guess shit happens.
anywho...
i must mention something about the AWESOME SevenFootSeany!! he's the coolest! he's my favorite! *i luv him with all the boogies in my nose!* lol (inside joke)
yeah my christmas was sucky.... i got a few things and i mean the presents dont even matter to me, but i mean the one person who i wanted to at least see or get soemthing out of was my dad... and guess who was the one person who didnt bother... *shrugs it off*... oh well... so instead i called him up and said "hey daddy, weren't you going to get me a cell phone?" and he replied "yeah but i mean your mom said you wanted a movie..." and i'm trying to see how he can compare the two, and so i said "can i just have the money?!" i was pretty angered by this point... so i got $60 bucks out of him...
my new year's was great! i spent it with evan, sparky, sierra, kasey, and joseph. we were all at sparky's aunt's house at her party. we had a grand ole time
hopefully with the coming of '05 things will get better!
i'm keeping my chin up
"when the road gets bumpy,
don't ya be a grumpy,
just smile, smile, smile and be happy!
don't wear a long face,
it's never in style,
be optimistic, and smile!"
*i'm trying :)*
<3 GaRbAgE <3