Hum.
Confused confused confused... I'm at a total crossroads here. I don't think I've been so unsure about what I'm doing in my whole life. I thought it was a phase, but nothing's changing so perhaps it isn't? I don't want to worry, I know God has called us to give everything up to Him in prayer, which I have, but the worry keeps coming. I mean... doesn't it become somewhat necessary to worry when there are deadlines and decisions that have to made? I thought I knew what I wanted to do for a job, have been plugging away at school, and this past year have started to doubt that more and more. I mean, math major? Maybe it's just because I took all my math too fast, but I don't even know if I'm going to like it all that much anymore nor whether I want to be a teacher in the first place. Argh. If I had it my way I'd just work for my mom the rest of my life, but I can't exactly afford to do that. I know sometimes God brings us to this place just to remind us that the point exactly IS that He doesn't always want us to know the outcomes, only to put our faith in Him and follow. So.. I guess the real question is, where's the small light showing me where He is so that I can follow? I know nothing can make me happier than choosing God's way for me. I need help finding that right now... Ahhhh