This last week
So i think the last time i updated was when my nan was sick. So i figured id post an update becasue people were so great in their comments.
ON the Wednesday after i went to the hospital, the doctors told us that, her brain needed to move 2cm over and they were going to assess it again on friday. BUt during the night my nan started to have seizures. When i got to the hospital on thursday afternoon my dad told me that the seizures were becoming more frequent and her organs had started to shut down. BEfore this there was a chance of her waking up, once she started to seize there wasnt much hope. So my dad asked me if i wanted to go in and see her, i just wanted one more chance to say goodbye so i went in with him. JUst as i turned the corner in ICU i glanced at her bed while i put the protective clothes on and saw they had taken the bandage off her head..at that moment i turned to run out of the room..i couldnt bare to see my strong gorgeous grandmother, connected to tubes, with giant scares on her head and only half a head of hair (She was so proud of her hair) But my dad grabbed me and said 'you can do this' so i turned to walk in...and the seizures which were just hand twitches suddenly turned into full face twitching and i just lost it. My dad grabbed my face and hid my face from her while i just sobbed and sobbed until it was over. Once it was over he let me go and i lent down and kissed her hand and held it until the hand moved again..i just wanted to feel her move. i Said goodbye and my dad pretty much carried me out and put me in a conference room were my aunty was and i just ran to her and we clung to eachother crying. LAter the nurse came in and said we could move the process up and talk to the doc now and not friday. We chose not to...we wanted more time. ON the friday they made the decision to disconnect the life support and let her go in peace. So we did. She made it through the night with just a breathing tube, but on Saturday they cleared all the other visitors out of ICU so my nan could have her 3 children, my dad, my aunties b/f and 2 of her stepchildren with her while she died., they removed the breathing tube and my mum, aunty and uncle sung her favourite song 'day dream believer' to her as she took her final breathes. Im glad shes at peace but i miss her so much, and the worst thing is this never had to happen.
Turns out when they thought she had a stroke they told my mum 'we can save her...she has a chance if u let us do the surgery' Clearly we did the surgery. Later on a doctor came and told us that it was a stroke cause by a bleed on the brain which had happened a few weeks back. THEN the neurosurgeon came in later and said 'No, it happened a few days ago..the bleed..the stroke would not have happened without the bleed' She was in hospital all week, When she had delierium they were meant to keep an eye on her, they chose not to but to just keep her door open so they couold see her if they wanted. She sat there calling for a nurse and no one came and when she tried to find one she fell out of her bed. Now we werent told about this, my nan mentioned it in a delirius state, once we approached the nurses they said ' oh, it was just a lil slip, nothing to concern yourself about' but being paranoid we wanted a CT Scan done, they said they would and never did...if they hadve they wouldve caught the bleed, if the hadve done their jobs, she wouldnt have fallen. So we are now starting an investigation into the hospital, not to sue, but to get answers, to make them change the way they do things. I fully understand they are understaffed..i have 3 nurse friends i get it, but they couldve called us we wouldve sat there, they could have got a student who they dont need to pay, to do it. I just feel so cheated.
Also my nan was also paranoid about hospitals, so everytime she went it she wrote a note, which we found. It was saying that she loved her children so much, their dad would be so proud and she would see them down at the club on the races and down at Gloria Jeans for coffee, and said that she loved Me and my bro and sis' more than we could ever know and that we would be great someday. Then she finished it with 'Bum' (our families random way of saying goodbye lol) it was beautfil but heartbreaking
My nan and my mums father...(he died before i ever met him)
My Nan and my grandfather
My nan at my uncles book launch. With my uncle and Gough Whitlam's wife
ONe of my fav photos of her. With my bro they had their own lil world going on lol
Also on a much lighter note my Aunties boyfriend was going to put me in touch with someone at channel 10 to help edit 'The biggest Loser' or ' Masterchef' but instead the person i was going to see moved to London :( SO instead He is putting me in touch with his sister who is a producer (her imdb page www.imdb.com/name/nm0825586/ ) And she is like you can help edit my next film, i can pay you but i can put you in the credits' :D hazaar, and then i can put you in contact with TV ppl :D yay for that. If a job comes out of it, i wont be leaving for the airforce
ON the Wednesday after i went to the hospital, the doctors told us that, her brain needed to move 2cm over and they were going to assess it again on friday. BUt during the night my nan started to have seizures. When i got to the hospital on thursday afternoon my dad told me that the seizures were becoming more frequent and her organs had started to shut down. BEfore this there was a chance of her waking up, once she started to seize there wasnt much hope. So my dad asked me if i wanted to go in and see her, i just wanted one more chance to say goodbye so i went in with him. JUst as i turned the corner in ICU i glanced at her bed while i put the protective clothes on and saw they had taken the bandage off her head..at that moment i turned to run out of the room..i couldnt bare to see my strong gorgeous grandmother, connected to tubes, with giant scares on her head and only half a head of hair (She was so proud of her hair) But my dad grabbed me and said 'you can do this' so i turned to walk in...and the seizures which were just hand twitches suddenly turned into full face twitching and i just lost it. My dad grabbed my face and hid my face from her while i just sobbed and sobbed until it was over. Once it was over he let me go and i lent down and kissed her hand and held it until the hand moved again..i just wanted to feel her move. i Said goodbye and my dad pretty much carried me out and put me in a conference room were my aunty was and i just ran to her and we clung to eachother crying. LAter the nurse came in and said we could move the process up and talk to the doc now and not friday. We chose not to...we wanted more time. ON the friday they made the decision to disconnect the life support and let her go in peace. So we did. She made it through the night with just a breathing tube, but on Saturday they cleared all the other visitors out of ICU so my nan could have her 3 children, my dad, my aunties b/f and 2 of her stepchildren with her while she died., they removed the breathing tube and my mum, aunty and uncle sung her favourite song 'day dream believer' to her as she took her final breathes. Im glad shes at peace but i miss her so much, and the worst thing is this never had to happen.
Turns out when they thought she had a stroke they told my mum 'we can save her...she has a chance if u let us do the surgery' Clearly we did the surgery. Later on a doctor came and told us that it was a stroke cause by a bleed on the brain which had happened a few weeks back. THEN the neurosurgeon came in later and said 'No, it happened a few days ago..the bleed..the stroke would not have happened without the bleed' She was in hospital all week, When she had delierium they were meant to keep an eye on her, they chose not to but to just keep her door open so they couold see her if they wanted. She sat there calling for a nurse and no one came and when she tried to find one she fell out of her bed. Now we werent told about this, my nan mentioned it in a delirius state, once we approached the nurses they said ' oh, it was just a lil slip, nothing to concern yourself about' but being paranoid we wanted a CT Scan done, they said they would and never did...if they hadve they wouldve caught the bleed, if the hadve done their jobs, she wouldnt have fallen. So we are now starting an investigation into the hospital, not to sue, but to get answers, to make them change the way they do things. I fully understand they are understaffed..i have 3 nurse friends i get it, but they couldve called us we wouldve sat there, they could have got a student who they dont need to pay, to do it. I just feel so cheated.
Also my nan was also paranoid about hospitals, so everytime she went it she wrote a note, which we found. It was saying that she loved her children so much, their dad would be so proud and she would see them down at the club on the races and down at Gloria Jeans for coffee, and said that she loved Me and my bro and sis' more than we could ever know and that we would be great someday. Then she finished it with 'Bum' (our families random way of saying goodbye lol) it was beautfil but heartbreaking
My nan and my mums father...(he died before i ever met him)
My Nan and my grandfather
My nan at my uncles book launch. With my uncle and Gough Whitlam's wife
ONe of my fav photos of her. With my bro they had their own lil world going on lol
Also on a much lighter note my Aunties boyfriend was going to put me in touch with someone at channel 10 to help edit 'The biggest Loser' or ' Masterchef' but instead the person i was going to see moved to London :( SO instead He is putting me in touch with his sister who is a producer (her imdb page www.imdb.com/name/nm0825586/ ) And she is like you can help edit my next film, i can pay you but i can put you in the credits' :D hazaar, and then i can put you in contact with TV ppl :D yay for that. If a job comes out of it, i wont be leaving for the airforce