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Lately I am feeling all sorts of things. Mostly good, and not necessarily bad, but just solemn. Kind of melancholy, nostalgic.
I'm not sure what it is. Well, I kind of know. I just got a computer which I am very excited about. I just love it. I can bring it with my everywhere and work on my school stuff and I am being very productive. So, I have been putting all my music on my iTunes and and I am able to finally update the iPod shuffle that my brother gave me a couple months ago. But being able to listen to all this music is making me feel all sorts of different waves of emotions. Good, bad, sad, scared. I am putting all sorts of mix cds on it, including mixes from Danny. My mixes from Danny are amazing. I love them, but some of the songs make me feel so sad. It just kills me. And I get to thinking about the past and then I get really sad. Mostly I'm just happy to feel something from the past whether it's a sad feeling or not. I also feel really happy when I listen to them.
Every once and a while I get to feeling all these things and having all these different feelings about love. I want to fall in love so bad. Right now. I always feel like, Ok I am at the perfect point in my life to fall in love. I feel really great about myself, mentally and physically. I want to fall in love. Especially where I am physically, Portland. I want to fall in love with someone here. But then I think-am I really ready to fall in love right now. My brain kicks in with my emotions, which is rare. I always think with my heart first.
Am I ready to fall in love again? It's such a big thing. Especially for me. I have school stuff on my shoulders. I am a very busy woman. And I know that I don't necessarily need a man. But I want it. I want love.
Also I really just want intimacy. I just want to kiss someone. I want to make out with someone for hours. I want to hold someone. I want that warm embrace. I just want to be calm with someone. I want warmth.
I'm not sure what it is. Well, I kind of know. I just got a computer which I am very excited about. I just love it. I can bring it with my everywhere and work on my school stuff and I am being very productive. So, I have been putting all my music on my iTunes and and I am able to finally update the iPod shuffle that my brother gave me a couple months ago. But being able to listen to all this music is making me feel all sorts of different waves of emotions. Good, bad, sad, scared. I am putting all sorts of mix cds on it, including mixes from Danny. My mixes from Danny are amazing. I love them, but some of the songs make me feel so sad. It just kills me. And I get to thinking about the past and then I get really sad. Mostly I'm just happy to feel something from the past whether it's a sad feeling or not. I also feel really happy when I listen to them.
Every once and a while I get to feeling all these things and having all these different feelings about love. I want to fall in love so bad. Right now. I always feel like, Ok I am at the perfect point in my life to fall in love. I feel really great about myself, mentally and physically. I want to fall in love. Especially where I am physically, Portland. I want to fall in love with someone here. But then I think-am I really ready to fall in love right now. My brain kicks in with my emotions, which is rare. I always think with my heart first.
Am I ready to fall in love again? It's such a big thing. Especially for me. I have school stuff on my shoulders. I am a very busy woman. And I know that I don't necessarily need a man. But I want it. I want love.
Also I really just want intimacy. I just want to kiss someone. I want to make out with someone for hours. I want to hold someone. I want that warm embrace. I just want to be calm with someone. I want warmth.