happier days ahead?
It's been a while since I've been this happy, this content. Lately the only times I've been able to forget my problems were when I was drinking... and this was the first weekend that I didn't even want to get drunk. I drank a little bit, but not enough to really get drunk.. i suppose I got a bit tipsy, but that's it.
Friday night I met a guy... I was hesitant about meeting him, as we originally met on a personals thing on The Onion. I actually found it through Nashvillescene.com, not realizing it was operated by The Onion. I only filled the ad out to be silly, and see what kind of people would respond.. Well Robbie was the first guy my age from this area to respond. He gave me his email address, so I sent him an email, and we had fun writing each other... Well we decided to meet up this past friday.
I was kind of nervous about the whole thing, because I've done the whole internet thing before, and it has never worked out in the long run. Sometimes it worked for a while, but it always turned out badly in the end. And judging by his picture, it was hard to tell what kind of person he was. He seemed a little rough around the edges, and I didn't know if that was a good or bad thing. But we talked on the phone the night before we met, and he seemed harmless at least. So on Friday I waited at Starbucks for him to arrive. When I saw him walking in the door I immediately noticed that the picture was not a good description of him. I could tell he was very laid back, but not necessarily "rough around the edges." He approached me and introduced himself, and I knew it was all up hill from there.
We talked for awhile as my coffee cooled and I slowly sipped it. I think I burnt my tongue... I can't even remember much dialogue, as I was so overwhelmingly excited that we were actually connecting... Not just getting along or making small talk... We were really understanding each other. I had told him prior to the meeting that if things went well at Starbucks I'd consider going somewhere else with him. As soon as I finished my coffee I asked him if he wanted to go somewhere else, and he of course said yes. So we headed to Blackstone (a local brewery) for a couple beers.
On the way there, it wasn't awkward at all. It was amazing how smooth everything was, and how comfortable we were. We arrived at Blackstone and just talked about politics, our feelings on religion and spirituality, and what we want in life. We basically felt the same about everything. Again, it was amazing. I also got to try a new beer, as I had never been to blackstone before. It was really good, and very original. I think I found a new favorite brew.
When we left Blackstone we were sitting in the car, and he kissed me. It was really sweet and nice.. not overbearing or all, "I want to take you home and have sex with you," kind of kiss. It was just simply saying, "I like you and I'm really glad I met you." It was perfect. We ended up going back to his house, or rather his parents' house, and yeah we did make out, and it was fun. Everything was going so perfectly that at first I didn't want to get very physical with him.. I didn't want to rush things along too quickly, because I want to keep him around. I don't want him to be like my most recent dates who stopped calling me within a week of meeting me. I actually like him, and want to get to know who he is.
On Saturday morning he called me and told me he was thinking about me, and that he wanted to see me again that night. Of course I couldn't resist, so we hung out again. We were just going to have a quiet evening at home watching movies, but my best friend called and convinced us to go out with her. We went to a few bars and played pool and watched karaoke... and I even sang a song and made a fool of myself... but we went home early as neither of us were really having fun. But I learned one more thing about him that night- that he is really interested in knowing who other people are, even if it's some random guy we met playing pool. I really like that he values others- he isn't fake or selfish like most people.
so I'm very hopeful about my future with Robbie. I don't want to assume that it's going to work out, but I can feel it.. I'm not just dreaming this time, and I'm not just settling because he paid attention to me.. We really do connect, and he really is honestly interested in me. He's genuine- a true gem. I guess I just got lucky...
Friday night I met a guy... I was hesitant about meeting him, as we originally met on a personals thing on The Onion. I actually found it through Nashvillescene.com, not realizing it was operated by The Onion. I only filled the ad out to be silly, and see what kind of people would respond.. Well Robbie was the first guy my age from this area to respond. He gave me his email address, so I sent him an email, and we had fun writing each other... Well we decided to meet up this past friday.
I was kind of nervous about the whole thing, because I've done the whole internet thing before, and it has never worked out in the long run. Sometimes it worked for a while, but it always turned out badly in the end. And judging by his picture, it was hard to tell what kind of person he was. He seemed a little rough around the edges, and I didn't know if that was a good or bad thing. But we talked on the phone the night before we met, and he seemed harmless at least. So on Friday I waited at Starbucks for him to arrive. When I saw him walking in the door I immediately noticed that the picture was not a good description of him. I could tell he was very laid back, but not necessarily "rough around the edges." He approached me and introduced himself, and I knew it was all up hill from there.
We talked for awhile as my coffee cooled and I slowly sipped it. I think I burnt my tongue... I can't even remember much dialogue, as I was so overwhelmingly excited that we were actually connecting... Not just getting along or making small talk... We were really understanding each other. I had told him prior to the meeting that if things went well at Starbucks I'd consider going somewhere else with him. As soon as I finished my coffee I asked him if he wanted to go somewhere else, and he of course said yes. So we headed to Blackstone (a local brewery) for a couple beers.
On the way there, it wasn't awkward at all. It was amazing how smooth everything was, and how comfortable we were. We arrived at Blackstone and just talked about politics, our feelings on religion and spirituality, and what we want in life. We basically felt the same about everything. Again, it was amazing. I also got to try a new beer, as I had never been to blackstone before. It was really good, and very original. I think I found a new favorite brew.
When we left Blackstone we were sitting in the car, and he kissed me. It was really sweet and nice.. not overbearing or all, "I want to take you home and have sex with you," kind of kiss. It was just simply saying, "I like you and I'm really glad I met you." It was perfect. We ended up going back to his house, or rather his parents' house, and yeah we did make out, and it was fun. Everything was going so perfectly that at first I didn't want to get very physical with him.. I didn't want to rush things along too quickly, because I want to keep him around. I don't want him to be like my most recent dates who stopped calling me within a week of meeting me. I actually like him, and want to get to know who he is.
On Saturday morning he called me and told me he was thinking about me, and that he wanted to see me again that night. Of course I couldn't resist, so we hung out again. We were just going to have a quiet evening at home watching movies, but my best friend called and convinced us to go out with her. We went to a few bars and played pool and watched karaoke... and I even sang a song and made a fool of myself... but we went home early as neither of us were really having fun. But I learned one more thing about him that night- that he is really interested in knowing who other people are, even if it's some random guy we met playing pool. I really like that he values others- he isn't fake or selfish like most people.
so I'm very hopeful about my future with Robbie. I don't want to assume that it's going to work out, but I can feel it.. I'm not just dreaming this time, and I'm not just settling because he paid attention to me.. We really do connect, and he really is honestly interested in me. He's genuine- a true gem. I guess I just got lucky...