There's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last
Another year, but this wasn't any other year, this was the year, probably the most lifechanging and probably the biggest epoch and I don't know, I'm sad that its gone because now all thats ahead of me is the droning on and the complacency that comes along with no more really new experiences and growing comfortable somewhere new and pining for it in years to pass.
But 2005, 2005 was different. It was everything to me, it was my first life, my first prom, my first nights in another bed, my first Love, and how I miss him, and everything, my epiphany that my best friends are my rock, and my family is my Earth, and now this year, its been a troubling year but I've never felt so grounded, and so above all the trees.
My resolutions were odd last year, they were easily attainable and yet at a certain point I failed and I succeeded in them. I haven't figured out what I want and I am making the same mistakes again, dwelling, dwelling, loving without reciprocity, and well thats something that I can put on another list, this year's list and maybe next years and probably the next year after that. I compromise, but I still seek what I want, I don't know, that one is also mixed, I find myself doing things my own way but I can still see the person that changes what she wants to accomodate whats given to her. And lastly, most importantly I have enjoyed 2005 with the people I love so much in every way that I could, pouring my love into these people who have gotten my through each day.
2005 in a nutshell:
No wishing it was 2006 but wishing it could be permanently 2005 in my brain and in my heart.
College applications
Rejection
No New York
My first real breakup
My first own party (TURKEY BOURBON!!!)
Experimenting with um new things other than HOOKah
Summer and Bills
Prom, (fucking on the dance floor, fucking on the dance floor)
Grad Nite and falling asleep on a bench at Disneyland
Spring Break!
And the boy I still miss that I got to know during Spring Break
And then fell in love with the year thereafter
And my first real heartbreakingbreakup
And college!
Choosing Stanford
And loving it
And meeting new people
But loving the old ones
The ones that are still here
And New Years Eve
And everything thereafter
2006 Predictions:
Discovery
Some form of self-discovery
Kerns visit Stanford
A hopeful Summer
And a hopeful first year
Resolutions:
To figure out what I want (I think it needs to be repeated)
To not procrastinate so much
To keep in touch with the ones I love
And to have a fucking blast
Happy Fucking New Year<3
And happy Birthday Ashley Escamilla Sullivan
But 2005, 2005 was different. It was everything to me, it was my first life, my first prom, my first nights in another bed, my first Love, and how I miss him, and everything, my epiphany that my best friends are my rock, and my family is my Earth, and now this year, its been a troubling year but I've never felt so grounded, and so above all the trees.
My resolutions were odd last year, they were easily attainable and yet at a certain point I failed and I succeeded in them. I haven't figured out what I want and I am making the same mistakes again, dwelling, dwelling, loving without reciprocity, and well thats something that I can put on another list, this year's list and maybe next years and probably the next year after that. I compromise, but I still seek what I want, I don't know, that one is also mixed, I find myself doing things my own way but I can still see the person that changes what she wants to accomodate whats given to her. And lastly, most importantly I have enjoyed 2005 with the people I love so much in every way that I could, pouring my love into these people who have gotten my through each day.
2005 in a nutshell:
No wishing it was 2006 but wishing it could be permanently 2005 in my brain and in my heart.
College applications
Rejection
No New York
My first real breakup
My first own party (TURKEY BOURBON!!!)
Experimenting with um new things other than HOOKah
Summer and Bills
Prom, (fucking on the dance floor, fucking on the dance floor)
Grad Nite and falling asleep on a bench at Disneyland
Spring Break!
And the boy I still miss that I got to know during Spring Break
And then fell in love with the year thereafter
And my first real heartbreakingbreakup
And college!
Choosing Stanford
And loving it
And meeting new people
But loving the old ones
The ones that are still here
And New Years Eve
And everything thereafter
2006 Predictions:
Discovery
Some form of self-discovery
Kerns visit Stanford
A hopeful Summer
And a hopeful first year
Resolutions:
To figure out what I want (I think it needs to be repeated)
To not procrastinate so much
To keep in touch with the ones I love
And to have a fucking blast
Happy Fucking New Year<3
And happy Birthday Ashley Escamilla Sullivan