Baby I'm bad news
So its been creeping up on me lately that I'm tired, I'm so desperately tired of the fact that I might have left nothing behind and that no ties were even formed to be severed, I feel so lost and so fucking sad about how this has all played out. I hate being in the midst of depression like this, I thought I was over this, I thought I could pull myself out it like I did last time, but now that I'm alone, and there's no comfort from anything, I don't have any song to keep me going, I don't see the love all around me and I don't feel like it might be there, I don't see myself pulling out of this in any way nor do I see helping me out of it, and I know this is going in circles but I'm so frustrated because everyone is ok and I can't stop sobbing, I can't stop silently crying slightly ashamed when someone sees my reddened eyes and I feel like just giving up, but I've always been unsuccessful at everything, even at giving up gracefully. I don't know where I'm going with this, I've been crying out for help and I've been making so little effort to fix it within myself that I feel like I'm self-imploding.