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[hollygoestotown]

I've had a great weekend. There were some not so great parts if you look at them the wrong way... but I've found that this weekend was probably excellent for my well-being. Jonathan and I decided to call it quits on whatever has been going on between us. I have realized that just because I met someone who is my age, goes to my school, and isn't in the military or has leukemia... doesn't mean that it's going to be someone I should be with. I've been trying so hard to find someone to be with that I forgot that I have standards. Maybe I should learn something from Rebecca Daniels today... it doesn't hurt to wait for the right one, because when he comes along... everything will fall into place as it should.

Unlike Jonathan... he will have time for me. Jonathan had a fucking 3.9 last semester and is taking 6 classes right now... none of which are easy enough that I would ever consider taking them. He is NOT ready for a relationship right now. He can't open up to me, and frankly I'm not looking for someone who has any of thoe qualities.

What am I looking for?
-someone who has time for me..
-someone who wants to be with me EVERY DAY... but still take care of himself and his needs and wants...
-someone with spectacular self-esteem so he can take care of me without it taking a toll on him.
-someone who turns me on.
-someone who can make me laugh my ass off.
-someone who appreciates crude, nasty, perverted, morbid humor.
-someone who WANTS me in his life... not NEEDS me...
-someone who has goals.
-someone smart.
-someone who cares about world issues.
-someone who can look at me and really believe that I am a beautiful girl.
-someone who will dance with me at a club.
-someone who is not from Huntersville.
-someone who isn't hideous...

I think I need to wait for all of these...

oh yea.. kiki.. you will get a kick out of this... rolo kissed me last night and he wants to go on dates with me...