January 25, 2009.
I woke up this morning to hear my Dad yelling, "Fuck you!" I didn't know who he was yelling at, but I didn't have the energy to walk out of my bedroom to find out. I slept in for a couple more hours and I woke up at 11:30 AM. I walked into Amy's room and I asked her who my Dad was yelling at and she said, "He was yelling at me." Tim called Amy this morning to tell her that his friend, Ryan, wife, Candice, is pregnant. Amy told my Dad and my Dad asked her, "Is she coming over?" and Amy asked him, "Who?" and he said, "Candice." and she asked him, "Why would she come over?" and he said, "To celebrate her fucking pregnancy." and Amy said, "No. I don't want her to come over. I don't like her." and Amy walked into her room and as she shut her bedroom door, he yelled, "Fuck you!" I love how he won't say, "Fuck you!" to her face. He will only say it when she is in her bedroom, with the door shut.
I didn't do anything during the day. I played Madden '09 and I watched a marathon of, "Jon and Kate Plus 8" and "17 Kids and Counting". I watched, "Extreme Makeover: Home Edition" tonight and I cried like a baby, as I do every Sunday.
I have been having a lot of drama with Emily the past couple of months and the less and less we don't talk, the more time I have to think about our friendship. I am trying to work it out with her, but I don't know if I want to work it out with her. I don't know if I am scared to lose her or if I am scared to lose a friend. I don't know if I am scared to not have her as a best friend or if I am scared to not have a best friend. I don't know if I am scared to see her leave me or if I am scared to be alone.
Jenni posted this video on the boards today: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gdi_VHvCR3A
I watched this and I became incredibly mad. The dad said that all Jewish people should die and I wanted to kill him when he said that. My Great Grandfather was Jewish and he was on The Orphan Train. He was adopted by my Great - Great Grandparents, but my Great - Great Grandmother used to beat him. My Great Grandfather went through Hell because he was Jewish and when he married my Great Grandmother, he wanted to raise his children Catholic because he didn't want his children to go through the Hell he went through. I was raised Catholic, but in my heart, I will never forget that I am part Jewish and I am proud to be part Jewish.
Happy Birthday to
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Starting Time?: 11:23 PM.
Name?: Holly.
Sisters?: I have one older sister and her name is Amy.
Brothers?: I have one older brother and his name is Tim.
Eye Color?: Brown.
Shoe Size?: It depends on the shoe, but the size ranges from 7 - 9.
Height?: I am either 5'6 or 5'7.
What are you wearing right now?: My Notre Dame sweater, my pink tank top with brown dots and my green pajama pants with green and pink Christmas trees.
Favorite Number?: 15.
Favorite Drink?: Coke.
Favorite Month?: December.
Favorite Breakfast?: Pancakes.
Have You Ever...
Broken a bone?: Yes, I broke my ribs.
Been in a police car?: Yes.
Been on a plane?: Yes.
Been in a hot tub?: Yes.
Swam in the ocean?: Yes.
Fallen asleep in school?: No.
Broken someone's heart?: I don't know.
Cried when someone died?: Yes.
Fell off your chair?: I don't know, but I probally have.
Sat by the phone all night, waiting for someone to call?: No.
Saved e-mails?: Yes.
Been cheated on?: No.
What Is...
Your room like?: It's boring, messy and ugly.
What is the last thing you ate?: Fruit Loops.
Ever Had...
Chicken Pox?: No.
Sore Throat?: Yes.
Stitches?: Yes.
Broken Nose?: No.
Do I...
Believe in love at first sight?: Yes.
Like picnics?: Yes.
Who...
Was the last person you danced with?: Amy and Krista.
Last made you smile?: My Mom.
Did you last yell at?: My Mom.
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?: I wear glasses.
Final Questions.
What are you listening to right now?: TMZ.
What did you do today?: I played Madden '09 and watched TV.
Hate someone in your family?: No.
Good singer?: I don't know.
Diamond or Pearl?: Diamond.
Are you the oldest?: No, I am the youngest.
Indoors or Outdoors?: Outdoors.
Today I...
Talked to someone you like?: I talked to people I like in general, but I didn't talk to anyone who I like in a romantic way.
Kiss anyone?: Yes, I kissed Serenity.
Get sick?: No.
Sing?: Yes.
Talk to an ex?: No.
Miss someone?: Yes.
Eat?: Yes.
Last Person Who...
You talked to on the phone?: Amy.
Made you cry?: A family who was on Extreme Makeover: Home Edition.
Went to the movies with?: Amy and Serenity.
Have I...
Been to Mexico?: No.
Been to Canada?: No.
Random.
Have a crush on someone?: Yes.
What books are you reading right now?: I am not reading anything right now.
Best feeling in the world?: Love.
Future kids names?: I want to name my son Thomas, but I don't know what I want to name my daughter.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: Yes. I sleep with my teddy bear, Tippy, who was given to me by a nurse when I had my open heart surgery.
What's under your bed?: I don't know, but everything under there is Tim's.
Favorite Sport?: Football.
Favorite Location?: Disneyland.
Who do you really hate?: I don't hate anyone.
Do you have a job?: No.
Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?: Yes.
You lonely right now?: Aren't I always lonely?
What time is it now?: 11:40 PM.