Split Ends
1st step to new Plan: Submerge self in more self-controlled creatures & release from all this controlled by instinct bullshit. I always let my kind side stop me from making messes but often it's necessary. But why would I rather loneliness? Bad company is better than no company. & even saying that, I don't truly believe in good or bad.
Neutral mindset wins over all good concious thoughts.
I'm rather a hopeless creature. I think the reason why I have/had so many people wanting to protect me is because they understand my vulnerable side.
I really do hate it.
I hate myself for it.