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i just watched grande ecole a film by robert salis. it was odd. most french movies are, but this one took the fucking cake. don't get me wrong, i liked it. but it was definately strange as hell. i think maybe i would have understand it more if knew more about french society and culture.
my mom and i had a very interesting conversation today. basically she told me i was grown up and she was no longer making her life decisions based on my needs and she couldnt control my daily actions. i told her i smoked and wasn't planning to stop any time soon. it was pretty intense. she cried. i thought about crying, but it felt kind of fake. i realized today that my mom has long since been not much more than a loving aquaintance. it's weird. is this what growing up means?
my tummy hurts. i think it was the dinner of half a peanut butter sandwich and a burrito that did it. it really sucks. i must eat food that takes more than one mintue to create, it is unhealthy not to.
i feel really stupid. i put myself in a situation i knew sucked but i chose not to notice, and now it has become painfully obvious. stupid is the only word for it. and maybe angry. but it doesnt matter. as long as i'm done with it now, its okay. i guess its pointless to be so angry at myself.
well, i'm going to go watch dr. strangelove and feel pretentious. later, players.
my mom and i had a very interesting conversation today. basically she told me i was grown up and she was no longer making her life decisions based on my needs and she couldnt control my daily actions. i told her i smoked and wasn't planning to stop any time soon. it was pretty intense. she cried. i thought about crying, but it felt kind of fake. i realized today that my mom has long since been not much more than a loving aquaintance. it's weird. is this what growing up means?
my tummy hurts. i think it was the dinner of half a peanut butter sandwich and a burrito that did it. it really sucks. i must eat food that takes more than one mintue to create, it is unhealthy not to.
i feel really stupid. i put myself in a situation i knew sucked but i chose not to notice, and now it has become painfully obvious. stupid is the only word for it. and maybe angry. but it doesnt matter. as long as i'm done with it now, its okay. i guess its pointless to be so angry at myself.
well, i'm going to go watch dr. strangelove and feel pretentious. later, players.