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So, I know I am bad at updating this damn thing and I know yall wanna know what is going on inside my head. Well, I feel like shit. I feel like i am loosing touch with the world in a since. It seem that when I wanna talk to people I cant. I either call and no one answers and never calls back, or I play phone tag and we never intercept each other, or when you do call me sometimes I just am asleep or not really wanting to talk. Sometimes I really don't wanna grow up. I don't want to deal with people and realize how they really are. Dealing with people all the time, it gets me wondering what I will be when I grow up. Will I be a nasty old hag and hate the world. I have people at work telling me I am a great girl, I have a bubbly personality, I even had someone tell me I had a beautiful soul. But what does that mean? Does that predict what I will be for the rest of my life?
I am another thing to talk about, is it normal for guys*cough cough* to get MY PMS? I thought that was supposed to be for females to get. I thought I was the one that was supposed to be moody and bitchy. I think that somethings are supposed to be strickly female.
I am stressing about this wedding. Telling my parents. My Aunt's know, and they are supportive. I can tell aunt joan anything and it is ok, she understands and I love having family on my side. I don't know how the fuck I am going to pay for this damn thing. I want things to be nice, but casual, but it is still going to cost a shit load of money that I don't have. I want my mom to be ok with it. That is my greatest wish in all the world. I don't want to upset her or make her mad, but I feel like I have to stand up for my beliefs as well as respect her. I just don't know how to make those two things coexist. I guess that is all I have to say about that.....lol.
Thanks for listening!!!
I am another thing to talk about, is it normal for guys*cough cough* to get MY PMS? I thought that was supposed to be for females to get. I thought I was the one that was supposed to be moody and bitchy. I think that somethings are supposed to be strickly female.
I am stressing about this wedding. Telling my parents. My Aunt's know, and they are supportive. I can tell aunt joan anything and it is ok, she understands and I love having family on my side. I don't know how the fuck I am going to pay for this damn thing. I want things to be nice, but casual, but it is still going to cost a shit load of money that I don't have. I want my mom to be ok with it. That is my greatest wish in all the world. I don't want to upset her or make her mad, but I feel like I have to stand up for my beliefs as well as respect her. I just don't know how to make those two things coexist. I guess that is all I have to say about that.....lol.
Thanks for listening!!!