the only solution is this endless reprise; [playlist]
Got bored, so am making a playlist for Akemi. Will probably upload the music later if anyone is interested.
Imperative Reaction, Salvation
stitching threads of truth into the emptiest deception
to bleed the open scabs once more and multiply obsession
intangible seduction and a manufactured dream
faith is what is hoped for but heaven isn't free
the path to god
a downward slide
Shadow Hearts 1 OST, Sacrifice-ALICE
instrumental
Vienna Teng, Drought
and the taste of dried-up hopes in my mouth
and the landscape of merry and desperate drought
how much longer dear angels
come break me with ice
let the water of calm trickle over my doubts
Assemblage 23, Human
No absolution comes for free
And it never will
And those among us without sin
Are even rarer still
Fuel, Innocent
Angels, lend me your might
Forfeit all my lives to get just one right
All those colors long since faded
All our smiles are confiscated
Never were we told
We'd be bought and sold
When we were innocent
Vienna Teng, My Medea
For I must die for what I've done
A twist of fate a desert sun
For I see what I destroy
Sweet reflection knife into me
For I see what I destroy
I can see what I've begun
Ashbury Heights, Penance
all our lives are in penance
and penance is all we've got
it's just a world of hurt
for everyone involved
penance for a dream
there's nothing fair about it
no forgiving traits that i can see
Assemblage 23, Regret
some time ago i checked my conscience
and found it wasn't all that clean
a trail of people i had hurt
a sea of sins left unredeemed
Hungry Lucy, High Price of Mistakes
don’t think positive
i’ll only crush myself
we just have to learn
in our mistakes we cause concern
but in the end it’s only me who’ll burn
Imperative Reaction, As We Fall
i'm trying to hold on
but i'm losing ground
drifting towards the edge
as it all comes down
i'm giving in
there is no answer
falling down within
holding on to might have been
Nightwish, Dead Boy's Poem
never sigh for better world
it's already composed, played and told
every thought the music I write
everything a wish for the night
Switchfoot, This Is Your Life
yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
Shadow Hearts 1 OST, Brain Hopper
instrumental
A Perfect Circle, The Noose
And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you to the ground
But I'm more than just a little curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead
Lacuna Coil, Heaven's A Lie
Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn't realize that you've been here
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Set me free
your heaven's a lie
The Birthday Massacre, Unfamiliar
Lately,
Nothing passes by me.
And every hand is pulling me down -
And praise is just an unfamiliar sound, to me.
Just close the door,
It's all coming back to me.
Be still my heart,
'Cause it's all coming back.
Just close the door,
It's all coming back to me.
Be still my heart,
'Cause it's all coming back.
Bel Canto, A Shoulder To The Wheel
Find the broken pieces and the start anew
You make yourself believe that you did
Something right
You're denying your only wish
By forgetting your promises
Once and for all
And forever more
October Project, Sunday Morning Yellow Sky
(When the darkness falls like a curtain
And the night ahead is a long and uncertain dream
Beyond the loss and the hope of redemption)
Stabbing Westward, Everything I Touch
The more I feel
The more I die
Nothing to give
Nothing inside
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
Winterstahl, Self-Deception ([Dan.l] Version.)
reality comes to confront me
how can i continue to live this time
when reality comes to destroy me
i'll just let my memory die
oh so perfect from the outside
but still bleeding from within
reality comes to destroy me
Globus, Orchard of Mines
Don't taint this ground with the color of the past
Are the sounds in bloom with you?
Cause you feel like an orchard of mines
Just take one step at a time
And you seem to break like time
So fragile on the inside, you climb these grapevines
Would you look now unto the pit of me on the ground
And you wander through these to climb these grapevines...
Poe, Haunted
Come here
Pretty please
Can you tell me where I am
You won't you say something
I need to get my bearings
I'm lost
And the shadows keep on changing
And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head
I:scintilla, Salt of Stones
The notes of decay
Learned from the mouth of violence
I sang them everyday
Till I became a silence
I say that I am okay
Cut edges and pretend
That I have a heart that I can mend
Fisher, Mad Girl's Love Song
the stars go waltzing out in blue and red
as all my darkness gathers in
i close my eyes the world drops dead
i think i made you up inside my head
VNV Nation, Chrome
Your actions turn conquest to dust.
Importance of fate, you foolishly place trust.
Sense fear in your broken breathing.
Resort to shadows till your body expires.
All creation has the promise of heaven,
and still you travel the road to hell.
I'm saying nothing for the good of myself,
but I'm still talking and you're not listening.
Tori Amos, Girl
"Sit in the chair and be good now"
And become all that they told you
The white coats enter her room
And I'm callin' my baby
Callin' my baby
Callin' my baby
Callin' everybody else's girl
Maybe one day she'll be her own
Tori Amos, Crucify
i've been raising up my hands
drive another nail in
just what God needs
One more victim
Ego Likeness,Second Skin
The messangers have told me
Begun to leave their marks
Scrawled across my skin now
Burned into my heart
Now I've been silent too long
The scar's already formed
Sealed in second skin now
Locked behind my door
Ego Likeness, I Live On What's Left
Broke in my hand
This was never the plan
But I guess since it's here
I'll stay strong where I stand
I'm falling apart
My name used to be grace
But now if you call me
Just call me misplaced
Sarah McLachlan, Path of Thorns
In the terms of endearment
In the terms of the life that you love
In the terms of the years that pass you by
In the terms of the reasons why
There's no more coming back this way
The path is overgrown and strewn with thorns
They've torn the life-blood from your naked eyes
Cast aside to be forlorn
Sarah McLachlan, Wait
Pressed up against the glass
I found myself wanting sympathy
but to be consumed again
oh I know would be the death of me
and there is a love that's inherently given
a kind of blindness offered to appease
and in that light of forbidden joy
oh I know I won't receive it
When all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the newborn hope unjaded by their years
Sarah McLachlan, Sweet Surrender
It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home
Nightwish, Nemo
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything
Assemblage 23, Alive
Waves of doubt wash over me
A sighing ocean of black
Deep and steady, dark and wide
Underneath indifferent stars
I've been waiting so long
For some kind of answer
But there's just an empty, distant sound
Calling like a mother's voice
Assemblage 23, Collapse
I'm running short of time
I'm running short of options
And the desperation is chewing me up inside
I've got nowhere to go
I've got no one to turn to
Just accelerating, inescapable decline
Assemblage 23, Leave It All Behind
Burn it down and start over
I want to leave this all behind
Abandon all the trepidation
Weighing heavy on my mind
Ego Likeness, Song to the Divine
I release this now
I am choking now
I am burning now
I've gone down in flames
I am breaking now
I release this now
I have pulled you down
I am choking now
I am burning now
Assemblage 23, Fallen Down
Cut forward to another day
Another time, another place
You're not who you used to be
And I wonder why
I knew you once
When you were young
Before you knew
What you'd become
But that was then
And this is now
You've lost your way
You've fallen down
And now there's nothing left
Your face a pale reflection
With only emptiness
You've lost your life's direction
Relationship Songs
Ego Likeness, Water to the Dead (w/his Naoya)
You've misplaced your tiny gods
Lost them to the ground
Let them suffocate with me
In the place they lay me down
October Project, Deep As You Go (w/Michi)
Don't save me
Don't lose me
Don't wake me now
You let me
You release me
Let me drown
Take me down
Imperative Reaction, Salvation
stitching threads of truth into the emptiest deception
to bleed the open scabs once more and multiply obsession
intangible seduction and a manufactured dream
faith is what is hoped for but heaven isn't free
the path to god
a downward slide
Shadow Hearts 1 OST, Sacrifice-ALICE
instrumental
Vienna Teng, Drought
and the taste of dried-up hopes in my mouth
and the landscape of merry and desperate drought
how much longer dear angels
come break me with ice
let the water of calm trickle over my doubts
Assemblage 23, Human
No absolution comes for free
And it never will
And those among us without sin
Are even rarer still
Fuel, Innocent
Angels, lend me your might
Forfeit all my lives to get just one right
All those colors long since faded
All our smiles are confiscated
Never were we told
We'd be bought and sold
When we were innocent
Vienna Teng, My Medea
For I must die for what I've done
A twist of fate a desert sun
For I see what I destroy
Sweet reflection knife into me
For I see what I destroy
I can see what I've begun
Ashbury Heights, Penance
all our lives are in penance
and penance is all we've got
it's just a world of hurt
for everyone involved
penance for a dream
there's nothing fair about it
no forgiving traits that i can see
Assemblage 23, Regret
some time ago i checked my conscience
and found it wasn't all that clean
a trail of people i had hurt
a sea of sins left unredeemed
Hungry Lucy, High Price of Mistakes
don’t think positive
i’ll only crush myself
we just have to learn
in our mistakes we cause concern
but in the end it’s only me who’ll burn
Imperative Reaction, As We Fall
i'm trying to hold on
but i'm losing ground
drifting towards the edge
as it all comes down
i'm giving in
there is no answer
falling down within
holding on to might have been
Nightwish, Dead Boy's Poem
never sigh for better world
it's already composed, played and told
every thought the music I write
everything a wish for the night
Switchfoot, This Is Your Life
yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
Shadow Hearts 1 OST, Brain Hopper
instrumental
A Perfect Circle, The Noose
And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you to the ground
But I'm more than just a little curious
How you're planning to go about
Making your amends to the dead
To the dead
Lacuna Coil, Heaven's A Lie
Something wrong
with all the plans of my life
I didn't realize that you've been here
Dolefully desired
Destiny of a lie
Set me free
your heaven's a lie
The Birthday Massacre, Unfamiliar
Lately,
Nothing passes by me.
And every hand is pulling me down -
And praise is just an unfamiliar sound, to me.
Just close the door,
It's all coming back to me.
Be still my heart,
'Cause it's all coming back.
Just close the door,
It's all coming back to me.
Be still my heart,
'Cause it's all coming back.
Bel Canto, A Shoulder To The Wheel
Find the broken pieces and the start anew
You make yourself believe that you did
Something right
You're denying your only wish
By forgetting your promises
Once and for all
And forever more
October Project, Sunday Morning Yellow Sky
(When the darkness falls like a curtain
And the night ahead is a long and uncertain dream
Beyond the loss and the hope of redemption)
Stabbing Westward, Everything I Touch
The more I feel
The more I die
Nothing to give
Nothing inside
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
Everything I touch I break
Winterstahl, Self-Deception ([Dan.l] Version.)
reality comes to confront me
how can i continue to live this time
when reality comes to destroy me
i'll just let my memory die
oh so perfect from the outside
but still bleeding from within
reality comes to destroy me
Globus, Orchard of Mines
Don't taint this ground with the color of the past
Are the sounds in bloom with you?
Cause you feel like an orchard of mines
Just take one step at a time
And you seem to break like time
So fragile on the inside, you climb these grapevines
Would you look now unto the pit of me on the ground
And you wander through these to climb these grapevines...
Poe, Haunted
Come here
Pretty please
Can you tell me where I am
You won't you say something
I need to get my bearings
I'm lost
And the shadows keep on changing
And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head
I:scintilla, Salt of Stones
The notes of decay
Learned from the mouth of violence
I sang them everyday
Till I became a silence
I say that I am okay
Cut edges and pretend
That I have a heart that I can mend
Fisher, Mad Girl's Love Song
the stars go waltzing out in blue and red
as all my darkness gathers in
i close my eyes the world drops dead
i think i made you up inside my head
VNV Nation, Chrome
Your actions turn conquest to dust.
Importance of fate, you foolishly place trust.
Sense fear in your broken breathing.
Resort to shadows till your body expires.
All creation has the promise of heaven,
and still you travel the road to hell.
I'm saying nothing for the good of myself,
but I'm still talking and you're not listening.
Tori Amos, Girl
"Sit in the chair and be good now"
And become all that they told you
The white coats enter her room
And I'm callin' my baby
Callin' my baby
Callin' my baby
Callin' everybody else's girl
Maybe one day she'll be her own
Tori Amos, Crucify
i've been raising up my hands
drive another nail in
just what God needs
One more victim
Ego Likeness,Second Skin
The messangers have told me
Begun to leave their marks
Scrawled across my skin now
Burned into my heart
Now I've been silent too long
The scar's already formed
Sealed in second skin now
Locked behind my door
Ego Likeness, I Live On What's Left
Broke in my hand
This was never the plan
But I guess since it's here
I'll stay strong where I stand
I'm falling apart
My name used to be grace
But now if you call me
Just call me misplaced
Sarah McLachlan, Path of Thorns
In the terms of endearment
In the terms of the life that you love
In the terms of the years that pass you by
In the terms of the reasons why
There's no more coming back this way
The path is overgrown and strewn with thorns
They've torn the life-blood from your naked eyes
Cast aside to be forlorn
Sarah McLachlan, Wait
Pressed up against the glass
I found myself wanting sympathy
but to be consumed again
oh I know would be the death of me
and there is a love that's inherently given
a kind of blindness offered to appease
and in that light of forbidden joy
oh I know I won't receive it
When all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
the newborn hope unjaded by their years
Sarah McLachlan, Sweet Surrender
It doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home
Nightwish, Nemo
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything
Assemblage 23, Alive
Waves of doubt wash over me
A sighing ocean of black
Deep and steady, dark and wide
Underneath indifferent stars
I've been waiting so long
For some kind of answer
But there's just an empty, distant sound
Calling like a mother's voice
Assemblage 23, Collapse
I'm running short of time
I'm running short of options
And the desperation is chewing me up inside
I've got nowhere to go
I've got no one to turn to
Just accelerating, inescapable decline
Assemblage 23, Leave It All Behind
Burn it down and start over
I want to leave this all behind
Abandon all the trepidation
Weighing heavy on my mind
Ego Likeness, Song to the Divine
I release this now
I am choking now
I am burning now
I've gone down in flames
I am breaking now
I release this now
I have pulled you down
I am choking now
I am burning now
Assemblage 23, Fallen Down
Cut forward to another day
Another time, another place
You're not who you used to be
And I wonder why
I knew you once
When you were young
Before you knew
What you'd become
But that was then
And this is now
You've lost your way
You've fallen down
And now there's nothing left
Your face a pale reflection
With only emptiness
You've lost your life's direction
Relationship Songs
Ego Likeness, Water to the Dead (w/his Naoya)
You've misplaced your tiny gods
Lost them to the ground
Let them suffocate with me
In the place they lay me down
October Project, Deep As You Go (w/Michi)
Don't save me
Don't lose me
Don't wake me now
You let me
You release me
Let me drown
Take me down