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OK so I'm setting here wondering why my life is shit but i am still happy with myself no matter how many time i let myself down i still love every thing about me i just don't understand how i went from trying to kill my self in many ways shapes and forms mostly mentally fucking my self over to become this person i could never want to change in any way and now i am just waiting for some one to realize i never wanted to hurt them and i never would again but that is some thing i can not control it is all up to them