Christmas wish

[hollowlife]

I think I may be lonely this feeling in my chest this throb of pain and the worries in my head about my life in general I think to much or maybe not enough I don’t think I know any more I just keep rambling on and on about how much I need and want some one I wonder if any one will fall in love with me really truly fall in love I can’t see it happening and even if it did I would not believe them I don’t understand a lot of things that are running in my head right now I want someone to want me to be in love with me lay it all down like I have so many times put all there energy in to hearing my voice at least one time a day I want to be the reason some one lives the reason they open there eyes every morning there inspiration any thing I want to mean some thing to someone something great something they feel they can not live with out I want some one to take my position looking up at me on the pedestal this time I’m sick of loving and caring ,dying ,killing and being reborn again to do the same thing over and over again I want to be on the receiving end this time I want to be loved I think that just may be it or the fact that I’m listing to Edwin McCain -I’ll be sad ass love song
I’m too hard core for this shit lol