NYE

Jan 04, 2008 00:13

NYE brooklyn year two..nice weather, good times..your typical time with a bunch of drunkass motherfuckers tryin to wild out..Some memorable moments, new tattoo and a nice hoodie...the more time I spend around drunk people in large social settings, the easier I find it for me to study human behavior, specifically base behavior, involving sexual interaction between men and woman..what works, what doesn't work, how people allow themselves to be controlled by their sexual urges, how people respond to being approached sexually, and how often lines like "you want to see my room" work..being sober in the midst of all this and watching people that I know interact with others and watching strangers work their way into the scenario allowed me to really observe how alcohol makes people act..what was interesting as well was the fact that so many people I know, have drug and alcohol problems that I got to observe the very depths of addiction and dysfunction at the same time. It makes social interaction interesting but hardly tolerable..I want to be a recluse, going to the bar or large social gatherings is starting to wear on me. I'm finding it harder to adapt within these situations making me uncomfortable and prone to chain smoking..I don't feel like I get it anymore, slowly fading interests are pushing me against the walls and I can't seem to move from them.

The winter sucks, 2008 sucks, my financial situation sucks right now. I signed up for classes and I don't have the money to pay for it, I'm thinking about dropping the class and being a hermit to save money during the winter..saying fuck school and banking throughout the winter and then bouncing during the summer..I don't know what to do, I'm already very hesitant about going back to school, scared and pissed at my self about having to do this in the first place and now I'm not even sure I have money, wack steez.

kitten, feel free to save me from this city and myself anytime now
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