Comments | hollowlies: the other side

hollowlies

the other side

Mar 11, 2006 15:36

Yesterday I was walking through downtown boulder and on the other side of the medium are two cars stopped in the middle of the street and the man in the second car(the one behind) is reaching into the drivers side of the first car and punching or pulling, there is an obvious violent physical altercation going on. I look around and notice two other ( Read more... )

Leave a comment

Back to all threads

reliefbyrant March 12 2006, 09:25:00 UTC

its like you made that story up... lifes beckonings are quite a beautiful moment. Its like the universe has been inspired by itself to put together a scenario just for you...the ever present seeker... to interpret and inscribe ourselves in relation to enviroment.There are some who have lost this art of interpretaion, there are those who see these great events as random, diconnected, and meaningless. There is not one waking moment where human behavior is not dispayed. There is not one waking moment where we can't interpret ourselves.

who knows what im gettin at.

its good you didnt get hurt in the scuffle

hollowlies March 12 2006, 18:59:14 UTC

it is pretty amazing that this altercation was so personal to me. It is interesting that addiction is probably the largest problem I've had to deal with since I started using drugs or since I was 15 and to sit across the table from my own parents and see the pain I've caused them but lets not use parents, let's just say choices we make, whether they are drug related or not, are so interconnected-we are so interconnected-that such types of moments happen all the time but THIS time, it took strangers, it took boulder, CO to make me see what and how our choices affect others. The concept of this violent altercation and the kid's safety seems to be almost secondary to the fathers, apparent hopeless actions of lashing out. I mean, is that not what we do when we feel cornered or as a last result? Is that what I'm doing right now, lashing out, beating myself and others around me? I have seen friends, family, acquaintances, people directly involved in my life struggle but sometimes, and only sometimes it takes complete strangers to open ( ... )

we are all worth it chineeserawks March 13 2006, 15:37:38 UTC

You will understand Bert....you will understand it all in time. But getting high stands in the way of you getting it, understanding it. Life is a journey and we figure things out as we go along....if we figured it all out at once then there would be nothing left to do, you would have no more room to grow, it's a process. You have to be willing to participate in that process and when you are high you aren't really participating, you are barely exsisting. When we are using we hurt a lot of people, including ourselves...but that doesn't mean that we are bad people...we are sick people....but we can get well and stay well. And those 2mg bars....well they do become bigger than us, they become bigger than the world. We can't do this shit on our own....it takes a whole army and a miracle to kick that shit...but I believe in miracles....I believe my life is a miracle and I believe yours can be one too.

answer reliefbyrant March 13 2006, 15:41:17 UTC

When we have sobriety we finally start to live and experience and understand and love and laugh.......and it is for real, it is no longer a life created by chemicals but a true and genuine experience....really living life is amaizing...the laughing the crying, the excitement and even the boredom, its all wonderful when YOU are the one really living it and not the drugs

Re: answer hollowlies March 13 2006, 22:01:34 UTC

I've had sobriety, maybe not your AA or NA sobriety, but I have been substance free before. I had long stints of not using any substance and unfortunately I found myself still unsatisfied with it all. I hate to always sound cynical and pessimistic but I've tried it all, sobriety and drugs and there is still something missing, something within me that is missing and there lies the question and the answer, what is missing?

Re: answer targetmarket March 20 2006, 17:37:37 UTC

NA/AA = YOU CAN'T TOUCH ANYTHING, EVER, EVEN IF YOU REMAIN IN CONTROL.

it also equals: get completely new friends, untouched by the hairy demon paws of beloved inebriation--sober, meeting-attending (90 in 90 days post-detox!) friends.

it also suggests: there's nothing really that bad with the world, a-hyuck. god is great, america is great, etc., etc.

and thus we've concluded: thx gotta go bye ttyl maybe ? lolz

Back to all threads