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Aug 29, 2008 14:20

Hmmm....what to say? I logged on hoping that pehaps just jotting a few things down might clear up the status of my mood...even to me. All in all I can say that things are progrssing in life. I have a goal set to ace all my classes this semester. So far, my classes have proven to be of my caliber. I should ace them all. I am particularly excited about the Intermediate Creative Writing class. It feels like writing is coming easier to me, probably on the account that I can feel my old erratic self coming back...my humanness coming back. We'll see how it goes. It has been dangerous to think at the extent that I have lately. To examine every action before it has even manifested or expressed...before it has rippled too far. It is like fear of everything. Fear of change. Fear of "doing something wrong" or "what will people think." Fear of any kind of confrontation. But you know, confrontation is just a part of this powerful play called existence. There is really no point to resist anything. It all turns out as it should anyway. Casey Sullivan has graduated...I think. Congrats Casey! I don't talk to the same people anymore. I can't do it. I don't want to get lost in bad habits like they are. I'm over those things. I'm ready for friends of my caliber. Friends that love me for me without getting emotionally attached (like most male "friends" feel about me now). Why is it that people can't draw a line between friendship and romantic attachment? That baffles me! It makes me lonely too, and in dire need of true friends.

Anywho, if anyone reads this, I hope you are doing well.

Cheers,
Lak
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