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I realize now more than ever that I truly do love you, but I can't tell you cause that would make me vulernable. And I will never be that vulnerable for you again. Besides, I think you just like to fuck with me just cause you know that I still care for you. You still remember how to turn me on, and you use that against me. It's not fair. I love you....and I wish you felt the same. I wish I could believe that you do love me. And right now, even if you said it, I'd still believe that you're only doing this to me cause you want to get laid before you leave the states again. I just wish that the person I love, would love me back. You did once...or at least you said you did...how does that change? How can you love someone, and then not? The only people I've ever loved, I've loved ever since. No matter what they've done to me. The fact that I still talk to you, should be proof of that. Damn, I wish I didn't love you though. Oh how I wish I didn't. Knowing I love someone, that doesn't love me back is painful. And then when you want to be friends, that kills.