But the humans will give no love
We got our first homework assignment today in Mechanics of Materials. I haven't gotten a chance to look at the problem set just yet, but it should give a good idea of what to expect from Professor Sprott.
I brought Oscar & Marina's guitar with me to school today. It's pretty tricky to play on that little thing, and it doesn't ring well with low notes, but I'll gladly make those trades for nylon strings. I also saw Xan today! The Hmong girl who randomly approached and talked with me last semester on light rail and such. She said, "Oh Dan! Where have you been!" but I know that's a lie, as I've spotted her walking around (as in, circumventing) the fountain area while I've played there. But oh well. She was also with a friend Jessica who was having a bad day, as apparently last night she had gotten into a fight the night before with her 34 year old boyfriend. Not like an argumentative fight, like she has a cut on her eyelid from being punched fight.I felt bad for her, but at the same time I can only ask why the hell she would be dating somebody that's ten years older than herself.
I think from there they were flirting with me...maybe I should have reciprocated, but the moment is past now.
I'll summarize it like this though: while we were out at the fountain they enjoyed the guitar playing heartily, and Xan was asking if I was single (seemingly on behalf of Jessica at this point), to which Jessica said, "Oh no, no, I think I need to be alone for a while if anything right now."
So we go to play pool.
And then they start talking about how they kinda like guys who aren't focused on themselves, and usually ones who are smart and nerdy, "Kinda like you, Daniel." said Xan
"Well then, it looks like I've got a good future ahead of me." was all I replied with.
Fuck.
I feel like I should have approached Xan but I feel like I'm just being a shallow horn-dog if I ask about somebody's availability, or if they want to go out. I always take the most sideways, vicarious approach to it as possible. I also try to inhibit myself from just lusting for girls as well. I mean, I do lust in my heart, but I will show no sign of it because I feel like it shows weakness in will and character. Like you trade in your humanity to be an animal. I just don't know; the whole "game" of it is confusing to me. It's can be exciting, but it's also frustrating.
I feel like a dog chasing a car, and I won't know what do to with the damn thing once it's in my grasp.
What I'm I going to woo a girl with? "So, how about dinner, a movie, and then we can head on back to my Dad's house."
Maybe I think about it too much.
I have also been getting better at pool lately. I play slightly regularly on campus (usually 2 times a week for 30 minutes each, so that's $5 for two weeks of pool), and playing occasionally in my own house. Recently I've learned how to hit the ball off-center with the cue so that the cue-ball imparts unusual motion upon the ball it hits. For example, the winning shot I made against Jessica and Xan in our 2-vs-1 game of 8-Ball. The 8-ball was perpendicular and to the left of a side pocket, and I was positioned in-line with the 8-ball and parallel to the side of the table the 8-ball was on. In short: I made a 90º shot.
After I got out of my last class I met up with Kevin to jam on guitar for a bit. It was good, but we definitely could have used Zephyr around. Kevin and I can do chords, but Zephyr can make some good melodies. I think I want to practice a little on doing that myself. I've also started to learn "Horse with No Name" I've always wanted to learn that song.
And now I'm home...
I think I'm going to play some pool,
do some homework,
and then let my mind wander before I sleep.
I think, if I ever have a house one day, I'd like to have a pool table in it.
I brought Oscar & Marina's guitar with me to school today. It's pretty tricky to play on that little thing, and it doesn't ring well with low notes, but I'll gladly make those trades for nylon strings. I also saw Xan today! The Hmong girl who randomly approached and talked with me last semester on light rail and such. She said, "Oh Dan! Where have you been!" but I know that's a lie, as I've spotted her walking around (as in, circumventing) the fountain area while I've played there. But oh well. She was also with a friend Jessica who was having a bad day, as apparently last night she had gotten into a fight the night before with her 34 year old boyfriend. Not like an argumentative fight, like she has a cut on her eyelid from being punched fight.I felt bad for her, but at the same time I can only ask why the hell she would be dating somebody that's ten years older than herself.
I think from there they were flirting with me...maybe I should have reciprocated, but the moment is past now.
I'll summarize it like this though: while we were out at the fountain they enjoyed the guitar playing heartily, and Xan was asking if I was single (seemingly on behalf of Jessica at this point), to which Jessica said, "Oh no, no, I think I need to be alone for a while if anything right now."
So we go to play pool.
And then they start talking about how they kinda like guys who aren't focused on themselves, and usually ones who are smart and nerdy, "Kinda like you, Daniel." said Xan
"Well then, it looks like I've got a good future ahead of me." was all I replied with.
Fuck.
I feel like I should have approached Xan but I feel like I'm just being a shallow horn-dog if I ask about somebody's availability, or if they want to go out. I always take the most sideways, vicarious approach to it as possible. I also try to inhibit myself from just lusting for girls as well. I mean, I do lust in my heart, but I will show no sign of it because I feel like it shows weakness in will and character. Like you trade in your humanity to be an animal. I just don't know; the whole "game" of it is confusing to me. It's can be exciting, but it's also frustrating.
I feel like a dog chasing a car, and I won't know what do to with the damn thing once it's in my grasp.
What I'm I going to woo a girl with? "So, how about dinner, a movie, and then we can head on back to my Dad's house."
Maybe I think about it too much.
I have also been getting better at pool lately. I play slightly regularly on campus (usually 2 times a week for 30 minutes each, so that's $5 for two weeks of pool), and playing occasionally in my own house. Recently I've learned how to hit the ball off-center with the cue so that the cue-ball imparts unusual motion upon the ball it hits. For example, the winning shot I made against Jessica and Xan in our 2-vs-1 game of 8-Ball. The 8-ball was perpendicular and to the left of a side pocket, and I was positioned in-line with the 8-ball and parallel to the side of the table the 8-ball was on. In short: I made a 90º shot.
After I got out of my last class I met up with Kevin to jam on guitar for a bit. It was good, but we definitely could have used Zephyr around. Kevin and I can do chords, but Zephyr can make some good melodies. I think I want to practice a little on doing that myself. I've also started to learn "Horse with No Name" I've always wanted to learn that song.
And now I'm home...
I think I'm going to play some pool,
do some homework,
and then let my mind wander before I sleep.
I think, if I ever have a house one day, I'd like to have a pool table in it.