Sep 19, 2006 16:47
Could my life get any easier?
I hang out with Steve's X one-night-stand girl and it's getting to me. He never answers my calls when he is with her. I got Jon marrying a girl that he rarely knew, he called me a week ago telling me that we will be together when he gets back and he loves me and he doesn't love his girlfriend.
Why me?
I just want someone to love me for ME, and not use me. Steven used me so much, i bought him food, clothes and i even gave him my old phone. What else? I try to love him. I really do, but Jon is always in my head.
I am not ment for anyone.
This is so hard for me. I am only 18 and i am already depressed. I don't have a job, my dad is in the hospital and i have a sister that won't stop fucking around. I will dissapear for a bit.
I don't think anyone would care even i was always there.
AND:
Jon is not worth my time, he is worthless.
I just got depressed for the fact that i am a NO BODY!