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well the last week deffinately had its ups and downs. the beginning of the week was great and everything was the same, which is probly why i liked it so much. once the middle of the week hit, everything kinda went downhill for me. i am sooo glad i have all my friends helping me thru eveything and doing their best to bring me up. i know that some of my friends will always be there for me, and i know which ones they are too. ive been getting alot closer to some awesome ppl :) haha so yeah its good. lately i like LIVE at kettering so its kinda weird but im getting used to it. on thursday after school i had poms...ughh :/ then hungout with amy tara n lindsey. then we went to the mott vs kettering soccer game and i got to see alot of ppl ive missed like...HAYLEY and some ppl from mott and then we just hung out with everyone so yeah it was pretty fun. this weekend has been going pretty good too...on friday i hungout with justine after school haha we had allot of good laughs! after tara came over and we got ready...oh yeah cant forget about our cruchwraps haha, and went to half of the kettering game. after halftime i left with brie danielle n justine to the mott homecoming game and got to see almost everyone and got to hang out with janet too. ahh i love all my old girlies! then after the game i went back to heathers with sarah and just hung out for a little. i think its cool how its stil us three...everythings back to normal again. i love you guys :) yesterday...MOTTS HOMECOMING!! ahh it was soo fun! i had to wake up early and get my hair done which it looked pretty good..then got home late in the day and rushed to get ready. first me n sarah got our pictures at my house, then we went to jesses and got our pictures there with a few of us, then we went to erikas where EvErYoNe was and took pictures for a whillle. our luck it rains haha. then our party bus got a flat tire so he was late already, then he doesnt know where hes going so he goes the exact opposite direction of where we were supposed to go so yeah we were all pretty pissed and late. ate dinner at sharks club, then went back and partied in the bus and headed over to mott. the dance was really fun they just coulda had better music...but it was hard not to have fun with everybody. after the dance we all went back to kaleys and just partied until like 430. left kaleys at like 1245 or something and now im here. today im going to amys i think with heather to work on our poms dance since tryouts are tomorrow...then going out to eat later. ketterings homecoming is coming up soon..and now im dateless :(. me and brianne have been having trouble finding limos and all that stuff, if anyone can give us any help that would be good.
lately this is ALL thats been on my mind...most people know what im talking about. i just wanna say to all girls who think they are truely in love...dont say it. i found out the hard way...and now im stuck like a rock. when guys say it, they dont really mean it. or at least mine didnt. how can u go from one night saying "I will always love you" to the next night "I dont think I like you anymore". this has been a complete shock for me and a really hard struggle. im trying as hard as i can to get thru this and my friends have been there for me all the way, but no matter what he always seems to be on my mind. sweet memories running thru my head of us everyday, memories of things u said to me. things u said that made me feel like i was actually worth something. you were who i looked forward to seeing after every class, getting antsy bc i NEEDED you. i still need you. i would look forward to every night talking to u and telling eachother about our day, it wasnt much but it meant so much to me. you cant even understand how much u hurt me. its kindof funny, how one thing can change to the next. things are completely opposite of how i want them to be. no one can replace you, im not even gonna try. im not gonna try to forget u, bc i know everytime i see u walk past me everything will come rushing back to my head and overwelm me with lost feelings. now theres nothing i can do but sit and watch u pass me by, as if everythings okay. are you okay? do you feel the way I do? do I ever even cross your mind anymore?... I didnt think so. as of right now... i still love you. <3<3
lately this is ALL thats been on my mind...most people know what im talking about. i just wanna say to all girls who think they are truely in love...dont say it. i found out the hard way...and now im stuck like a rock. when guys say it, they dont really mean it. or at least mine didnt. how can u go from one night saying "I will always love you" to the next night "I dont think I like you anymore". this has been a complete shock for me and a really hard struggle. im trying as hard as i can to get thru this and my friends have been there for me all the way, but no matter what he always seems to be on my mind. sweet memories running thru my head of us everyday, memories of things u said to me. things u said that made me feel like i was actually worth something. you were who i looked forward to seeing after every class, getting antsy bc i NEEDED you. i still need you. i would look forward to every night talking to u and telling eachother about our day, it wasnt much but it meant so much to me. you cant even understand how much u hurt me. its kindof funny, how one thing can change to the next. things are completely opposite of how i want them to be. no one can replace you, im not even gonna try. im not gonna try to forget u, bc i know everytime i see u walk past me everything will come rushing back to my head and overwelm me with lost feelings. now theres nothing i can do but sit and watch u pass me by, as if everythings okay. are you okay? do you feel the way I do? do I ever even cross your mind anymore?... I didnt think so. as of right now... i still love you. <3<3