Poems
Poems by me: Robert Vidal
1.
Love is that of Death.
With eyes like a doe and perfect skin.
Yet with eyes of evil and sin.
The face that the angel has in the same.
But it still maims, and devours you in pain
2.
A miracle from God.
Like a blooming flower with it?s wonder and Grace.
And is glowing, radiant, angelic face.
And with the flowing ocean that is her hair.
And as long as I?m with her
About nothing else, could I care.
3.
I know a girl
with her style and grace.
And I hope that one day, I may kiss her face.
I want to stroke her hair,
to assure me that she's there.
I wish I could hold her tight, for the rest of my life.
I wish that some day, she'll be my wife.
I want to hold her close, with one arm around her.
And protect her, from any sin that surrounds her.
I want to tell her the way that I feel.
And tell her that my love for her is real.
I want to know the taste of her sweet lips,
But whenever I look at her, it makes my heart skip.
I want to kiss her gently on the cheek,
just so I know, that she's right here with me.
I wish that she felt the same way I do,
and she'd say"I feel the same way you do, deep down inside you"..
For her to love me, is all that I ask
For me to tell her, and take of my lying mask.
If only she knew how much I care for her.
If only she know, the way I adore her...
If she knew, that without her I have no reason for living,
then maybe she'd be a lot more giving.
But I don't want her sympathy or regret,
I want her to love me, and know the pain that I get.
I hope that one day we will unite
And our realtionship will go without a fight.
I want to hold her next to me, and never let go,
But her feelings for me, I know are low.
So I hurt, so badly inside,
like my heart, has been peirced by a knife.
Like death has got an early start,
and reached in, and rippe dout my heart.
And everday now, my heart fills with sorrow,
in knowing that it will be the same tomorrow.
Another day shall I fill with pain,
And I wish she felt the same.
And I wheep, because though my feelings are unstoppable.,
The thought of her loving me, I know are impossible.
And I know that my feelings are quite childish,
but for her to love me, is all that I wish.
4.
I see as the beautiful girl approaches me.
I want to say something but I stop and freeze.
My mind goes blank, with nothing to say.
And I know it's not possible but I keep on wishing.
That "I love you" is what she will say.
5.
Love is death
when it grabs you by the neck with its iron clad
As you feel the pain and suffer pver the girl you'll never have.
And like a boiling coulron it devours your soul
And burns your heart, like a cinder or coal.
6.
Love is hell
it deprives you of your humanity
and pushes you slowly toward insanity
It fills yout and mind with hate.
Because you know that you and her are not fate.
7.
Love is the work of the devil
Your insanity rises to another level
And you hope that you will be together.
Be together, for all time, and forever.
8.
I feel the pain, the suffering the agony,
These thoughtm these feelings are overwhelming me.
Feelings for the woman I love.
This angen I'm certain is from above.
9.
I see the angel in her heavenly decent.
And I know that for me she was meant.
I hope and pray that she will be mine.
For ever, and ever, until the end of time.
10.
I see the girl with the amazing glow.
Beauty and grace from head to toe
And I pray to God that I will be with her
And maybe someday, I'll be able to kiss her.
11.
I watch the woman with her style and grace
And I couldnt help but stare at her beautiful face.
I immediately notice her great radiation,
It's a suprise, she's not know throughout the nation.
12.
As I sit here and ponder
In consciousness and slumber
I wonder if there is any one that loves me.
Anyone watching over from above me.
I think to myself ?What my purpose?
I feel like I?m standing on no surface.
Like I was meant as a toy
A toy of a young boy
I boy who?s found a love
But isn?t loved in return.
A toy for God to torture
And not for a love to nurture.
I lie in my bed and think
What?s my purpose for existing, why aren?t I extinct.
Why do I find love in the wrong places
I find love in the wrong faces.
I want to kiss all the wrong lips
And like a rug being pulled from under me I slip.
Slip into an eternity of pain.
I feel like I?ve been slain.
Slain by a demonic cupid.
And the only way I feel is stupid.
Stupid because I am not loved,
Loved my this angel that was sent from above.
13.
I try to suppress all my feelings and anger.
But I can?t help stop the way they linger.
They leak out of every hole.
Until my body is dead and cold.
They engulf me in fear.
Fear that my love will never be here.
My love for you is like a rebel force.
A force that follows its own course.
It goes the way it wants to.
And chooses the way I love you.
My love for you in undeniable.
Right when I think it?s gone, its unreliable.
I want to hold you close and tight.
And I won?t give you up without a fight.
But I know my wishes shall never be real.
You will never feel the same way I feel.
So I cry.
I cry and it makes me want to die.
Because without you I?m a lifeless corpse.
A corpse with a love, that follows it own course.
14.
Like blood the tears stain,
The tears that are made of pure pain.
The pain that breaks my heart,
Knowing that we are apart.
I need you here now for me to hold,
I need you here now to soothe my soul.
I need to hold you against my chest,
So once again my heart may rest.
If only you were here with me,
I'd be as happy as I can be.
I need you here to hold your hand,
And alone I will no longer stand,
I will no longer be by myself.
Because you'd be there to ensure my health.
For you to love me, and know how I feel.
For you to know, that my love is real.
I want to lay with you out by the beach,
And know that you're hand is never out of reach.
To hold you and stroke your hair,
For me you will always be there.
This is my only fantasy,
That you will be there, be here with me.
I know they?re dreams and only dreams.
But my God, how real they seem.
I know too that my wishes are naive,
But for you to be with me, I still plead.
You are always in my mind,
You?re in there at all times.
I see your face wherever I am,
This forever, how much can I stand.
I see your face in the ground, the clouds,
Wherever I go, you?re always around.
I need you here for your face to stare,
But I know, that you will never care.
15.
Love is pain.
It invaded and plagues the brain.
The feelings in your head,
Are enough to leave you cold and dead.
The pain I feel is overwhelming,
The pain, there's nothing else like it.
And there's nothing I can do to fight it.
To tell her how I feel, I can't begin,
I get week in the knees, and it's hard to stand.
To let out feelings, I cant even start,
Because this feeling, this pain, devours your heart.
You feel as if no one is watching from above you,
That you will never hear the words, "I love you"
16.
I feel so alone.
This pain I feel, chills the bone.
I feel as if there's no one around me.
As if nobody is helping.
I might as well, be in another world,
Because I've neither the love of a father, nor a girl.
17.
My father, since 10 he's never been with me.
Out of nowhere, he got up and left me.
My family suffered, I could no longer take it.
Every second, the thought that we wouldn't make it.
Since then, he's always been gone.
He's been away for way too long.
Father of mine, why did you leave.
That you could ever leave me, it's hard to beleive.
18.
The one I adore,
Doesnt know I exist.
I want to speak,
but I'm forced to resist.
I need to see her more,
Her beauty's unstoppable.
her affection I seek,
but I know it's not possible.
19.
I see the girl I feel strongly for
I see the girl I truly adore.
She looks at my with her amazing eyes,
and I fall to the ground and instantly die.
She glances in my direction with her radiant smile that can be seen for over a mile.
I pray that someday she'll know what I feel,
that someday shell see that its real.
Her hair flows like a wave in the sea.
But I know she will never notice me.
I try to talk but I just freeze,
and then she speaks with a heavenly breeze.
This girl I see is astoundingly lovely,
But I know that she shall never love me.
20.
My father, who I love so much.
I have never felt his gentle touch.
Never felt what he goes through,
He has never let it all seep through.
I dont know what goes on inside,
And I would never know, if he died.
I dont know how he feels,
And which side of him is real.
I will never know who he is,
or how he feels about his kids.
He doesnt tell whats really going on,
But i will ALWAYS know, he loves his Son.....
21.
I hate it when i act like this, when I'm feeling so much shit.
But when you've lived the live I've lived, it gives and doesn't quit.
I can't stand the pain i go through, it's driving me insane.
I don't know what to do now that my heart is bady maimed.
It eats and eats and eats at me, soon there's nothing left.
I begin to wonder what is better, this life I live...or death.
The pain it just devours me, and I don't know what to do.
It scared so badly, to know that i hurt you.
I hope you someday read this,
and now how bad I hurt.
I hope you know I will always love, the one that gave me birth.
I pray my friends live happy lives,
and theirs' happy too.
I pray that I see the light,
and know whats its like to be you.
I pray to God my life gets better,
but it has never happened.
It's like im in a storm, wetter...wetter...wetter.
So when I lay myself to sleep,
good dreams I beg you give,
and give my family happiness as long as they shall live.
I beg of you, O merciful One,
to make my life much better.
I pray that you put hault to this storm, wetter...wetter...wetter.
I can't stand the way I've let them down,
Repeatedly let them frown.
I hate the way theres nothing I can do,
too scared to say "I love you"
It hurts me so to see them cry,
So much I almost die.
But It's an endless train,
A train of sorrow and pain.
If nothing else help them more, my friends and my family,
don't bother giving me a chance
'Cause I blew it off nievly.
So when YOU lay me down to sleep,
I pray their lives get better,
I pray you forbid their lives get wetter...wetter...wetter...
22.
I feel regret for things I've done.
Things been said to a certain someone.
I feel as if I'm lonely forever.
I sink swiftly under with every endeavor.
Theres nothing but emptiness
Inside of my soul.
I watch as my hands get pale and cold.
I wish the things in my life would change.
The pain the anger the rue rearrange.
Things never get better
They keep getting worse.
LIke I'm living inside a life-long curse.
Don't know what I've done to deserve this desease.
But I pray to you lord, let it stop... please.
You've got my attention.
My life's yours for the keeping.
Just patch these holes,
Stop my ship from sinking.
The tide is too strong
I'm to weak to fight it.
I've never felt this bad,
And there's no feeling like it.
You've got your hand on my neck,
The cords on my arms.
I'll do whatever you wish
Just do me no harm.
I'm sick of pleading and begging for help.
Sick of being lonely,
So hear my yelp.
I'm tired of being abandoned
And hurt all the time.
Tired of being lonely.
And constantly behind.
Tired of being clueless,
Of what to feel, and how to react.
But I refuse to give up
I have to attack.
Show me the way
Tell me what I must do.
Do I take my own actions.
Or put my trust in you?
....I don't see you around me,
Or hear any answers.
I guess life doesn't change.
It's a burden, it's a cancer....
23.
Once again
Due to no fault but my own.
I'm left by myself.
Udderly alone.
I sit and i think
about where I went wrong.
About why I keep signing
This depressing song.
The repetitive chorus
Of the sad life I live.
A constant reminder,
of the bad things I did.
I'm sick of the hatrid,
that builds up inside.
Sick of falling asleep
Everynight while I cry.
All I want is love,
to feel alive again.
To once again be human,
for once just to win.
A never-ending struggle
that's the life I live.
Not even knowing
what it is i did.
If I could live it again,
I'd change every little aspect.
Change the way I see,
Deploy a new tactic.
On the brink of insanity
Treading thin ice.
The chance of revival.
LIke 12 sided dice.
My emotions run low.
My heart slowly dies.
My feelings astray.
For half of my life
I've felt this way.
But I play the same card
And try to stay strong
Try to stay alive.
...While I sing this sad song
24.
My life is too hard.
A living hell.
I'm forever entrapped,
In this painful cell.
I want you to beleive,
That what I've said is true.
No matter what happens,
I'll care about you.
I feel no regret.
For feelings I've shared.
I Feel no regret
For how much I care.
I respect your decision
and always will.
That doesn't change
The way i feel.
But everything sweet must have it's sours.
Painful and ruthless,
Like the thorns on these flowers.
25.
My life is meaninless,
My soul is empty.
My heart is hollow,
My pain a-plenty.
My emotions run high
My thoughts astray.
My life fades slowly.
WIth every day.
My eyes see beauty.
My ears hear lies.
Every time I see,
I begin to cry.
My hands feel love
My mind thinks so too.
My heart beats faster
When I'm with you.
My life has meaning.
My soul has color.
My thoughts all the same.
You're not for another..
My knees buckle
When in your presence.
When I'm around you
Everything's pleasant.
Like the rest of my life,
It doesn't last long.
It hurts me so bad.
But for your love I long.
So again I'm hurt.
My life has no meaning.
My soul's again black.
My eye's see sheer distance,
My thoughts aren't on track.
My ears hear crying.
I have no hand to hold.
The pain returns in doubles.
My heart's become cold.
1.
Love is that of Death.
With eyes like a doe and perfect skin.
Yet with eyes of evil and sin.
The face that the angel has in the same.
But it still maims, and devours you in pain
2.
A miracle from God.
Like a blooming flower with it?s wonder and Grace.
And is glowing, radiant, angelic face.
And with the flowing ocean that is her hair.
And as long as I?m with her
About nothing else, could I care.
3.
I know a girl
with her style and grace.
And I hope that one day, I may kiss her face.
I want to stroke her hair,
to assure me that she's there.
I wish I could hold her tight, for the rest of my life.
I wish that some day, she'll be my wife.
I want to hold her close, with one arm around her.
And protect her, from any sin that surrounds her.
I want to tell her the way that I feel.
And tell her that my love for her is real.
I want to know the taste of her sweet lips,
But whenever I look at her, it makes my heart skip.
I want to kiss her gently on the cheek,
just so I know, that she's right here with me.
I wish that she felt the same way I do,
and she'd say"I feel the same way you do, deep down inside you"..
For her to love me, is all that I ask
For me to tell her, and take of my lying mask.
If only she knew how much I care for her.
If only she know, the way I adore her...
If she knew, that without her I have no reason for living,
then maybe she'd be a lot more giving.
But I don't want her sympathy or regret,
I want her to love me, and know the pain that I get.
I hope that one day we will unite
And our realtionship will go without a fight.
I want to hold her next to me, and never let go,
But her feelings for me, I know are low.
So I hurt, so badly inside,
like my heart, has been peirced by a knife.
Like death has got an early start,
and reached in, and rippe dout my heart.
And everday now, my heart fills with sorrow,
in knowing that it will be the same tomorrow.
Another day shall I fill with pain,
And I wish she felt the same.
And I wheep, because though my feelings are unstoppable.,
The thought of her loving me, I know are impossible.
And I know that my feelings are quite childish,
but for her to love me, is all that I wish.
4.
I see as the beautiful girl approaches me.
I want to say something but I stop and freeze.
My mind goes blank, with nothing to say.
And I know it's not possible but I keep on wishing.
That "I love you" is what she will say.
5.
Love is death
when it grabs you by the neck with its iron clad
As you feel the pain and suffer pver the girl you'll never have.
And like a boiling coulron it devours your soul
And burns your heart, like a cinder or coal.
6.
Love is hell
it deprives you of your humanity
and pushes you slowly toward insanity
It fills yout and mind with hate.
Because you know that you and her are not fate.
7.
Love is the work of the devil
Your insanity rises to another level
And you hope that you will be together.
Be together, for all time, and forever.
8.
I feel the pain, the suffering the agony,
These thoughtm these feelings are overwhelming me.
Feelings for the woman I love.
This angen I'm certain is from above.
9.
I see the angel in her heavenly decent.
And I know that for me she was meant.
I hope and pray that she will be mine.
For ever, and ever, until the end of time.
10.
I see the girl with the amazing glow.
Beauty and grace from head to toe
And I pray to God that I will be with her
And maybe someday, I'll be able to kiss her.
11.
I watch the woman with her style and grace
And I couldnt help but stare at her beautiful face.
I immediately notice her great radiation,
It's a suprise, she's not know throughout the nation.
12.
As I sit here and ponder
In consciousness and slumber
I wonder if there is any one that loves me.
Anyone watching over from above me.
I think to myself ?What my purpose?
I feel like I?m standing on no surface.
Like I was meant as a toy
A toy of a young boy
I boy who?s found a love
But isn?t loved in return.
A toy for God to torture
And not for a love to nurture.
I lie in my bed and think
What?s my purpose for existing, why aren?t I extinct.
Why do I find love in the wrong places
I find love in the wrong faces.
I want to kiss all the wrong lips
And like a rug being pulled from under me I slip.
Slip into an eternity of pain.
I feel like I?ve been slain.
Slain by a demonic cupid.
And the only way I feel is stupid.
Stupid because I am not loved,
Loved my this angel that was sent from above.
13.
I try to suppress all my feelings and anger.
But I can?t help stop the way they linger.
They leak out of every hole.
Until my body is dead and cold.
They engulf me in fear.
Fear that my love will never be here.
My love for you is like a rebel force.
A force that follows its own course.
It goes the way it wants to.
And chooses the way I love you.
My love for you in undeniable.
Right when I think it?s gone, its unreliable.
I want to hold you close and tight.
And I won?t give you up without a fight.
But I know my wishes shall never be real.
You will never feel the same way I feel.
So I cry.
I cry and it makes me want to die.
Because without you I?m a lifeless corpse.
A corpse with a love, that follows it own course.
14.
Like blood the tears stain,
The tears that are made of pure pain.
The pain that breaks my heart,
Knowing that we are apart.
I need you here now for me to hold,
I need you here now to soothe my soul.
I need to hold you against my chest,
So once again my heart may rest.
If only you were here with me,
I'd be as happy as I can be.
I need you here to hold your hand,
And alone I will no longer stand,
I will no longer be by myself.
Because you'd be there to ensure my health.
For you to love me, and know how I feel.
For you to know, that my love is real.
I want to lay with you out by the beach,
And know that you're hand is never out of reach.
To hold you and stroke your hair,
For me you will always be there.
This is my only fantasy,
That you will be there, be here with me.
I know they?re dreams and only dreams.
But my God, how real they seem.
I know too that my wishes are naive,
But for you to be with me, I still plead.
You are always in my mind,
You?re in there at all times.
I see your face wherever I am,
This forever, how much can I stand.
I see your face in the ground, the clouds,
Wherever I go, you?re always around.
I need you here for your face to stare,
But I know, that you will never care.
15.
Love is pain.
It invaded and plagues the brain.
The feelings in your head,
Are enough to leave you cold and dead.
The pain I feel is overwhelming,
The pain, there's nothing else like it.
And there's nothing I can do to fight it.
To tell her how I feel, I can't begin,
I get week in the knees, and it's hard to stand.
To let out feelings, I cant even start,
Because this feeling, this pain, devours your heart.
You feel as if no one is watching from above you,
That you will never hear the words, "I love you"
16.
I feel so alone.
This pain I feel, chills the bone.
I feel as if there's no one around me.
As if nobody is helping.
I might as well, be in another world,
Because I've neither the love of a father, nor a girl.
17.
My father, since 10 he's never been with me.
Out of nowhere, he got up and left me.
My family suffered, I could no longer take it.
Every second, the thought that we wouldn't make it.
Since then, he's always been gone.
He's been away for way too long.
Father of mine, why did you leave.
That you could ever leave me, it's hard to beleive.
18.
The one I adore,
Doesnt know I exist.
I want to speak,
but I'm forced to resist.
I need to see her more,
Her beauty's unstoppable.
her affection I seek,
but I know it's not possible.
19.
I see the girl I feel strongly for
I see the girl I truly adore.
She looks at my with her amazing eyes,
and I fall to the ground and instantly die.
She glances in my direction with her radiant smile that can be seen for over a mile.
I pray that someday she'll know what I feel,
that someday shell see that its real.
Her hair flows like a wave in the sea.
But I know she will never notice me.
I try to talk but I just freeze,
and then she speaks with a heavenly breeze.
This girl I see is astoundingly lovely,
But I know that she shall never love me.
20.
My father, who I love so much.
I have never felt his gentle touch.
Never felt what he goes through,
He has never let it all seep through.
I dont know what goes on inside,
And I would never know, if he died.
I dont know how he feels,
And which side of him is real.
I will never know who he is,
or how he feels about his kids.
He doesnt tell whats really going on,
But i will ALWAYS know, he loves his Son.....
21.
I hate it when i act like this, when I'm feeling so much shit.
But when you've lived the live I've lived, it gives and doesn't quit.
I can't stand the pain i go through, it's driving me insane.
I don't know what to do now that my heart is bady maimed.
It eats and eats and eats at me, soon there's nothing left.
I begin to wonder what is better, this life I live...or death.
The pain it just devours me, and I don't know what to do.
It scared so badly, to know that i hurt you.
I hope you someday read this,
and now how bad I hurt.
I hope you know I will always love, the one that gave me birth.
I pray my friends live happy lives,
and theirs' happy too.
I pray that I see the light,
and know whats its like to be you.
I pray to God my life gets better,
but it has never happened.
It's like im in a storm, wetter...wetter...wetter.
So when I lay myself to sleep,
good dreams I beg you give,
and give my family happiness as long as they shall live.
I beg of you, O merciful One,
to make my life much better.
I pray that you put hault to this storm, wetter...wetter...wetter.
I can't stand the way I've let them down,
Repeatedly let them frown.
I hate the way theres nothing I can do,
too scared to say "I love you"
It hurts me so to see them cry,
So much I almost die.
But It's an endless train,
A train of sorrow and pain.
If nothing else help them more, my friends and my family,
don't bother giving me a chance
'Cause I blew it off nievly.
So when YOU lay me down to sleep,
I pray their lives get better,
I pray you forbid their lives get wetter...wetter...wetter...
22.
I feel regret for things I've done.
Things been said to a certain someone.
I feel as if I'm lonely forever.
I sink swiftly under with every endeavor.
Theres nothing but emptiness
Inside of my soul.
I watch as my hands get pale and cold.
I wish the things in my life would change.
The pain the anger the rue rearrange.
Things never get better
They keep getting worse.
LIke I'm living inside a life-long curse.
Don't know what I've done to deserve this desease.
But I pray to you lord, let it stop... please.
You've got my attention.
My life's yours for the keeping.
Just patch these holes,
Stop my ship from sinking.
The tide is too strong
I'm to weak to fight it.
I've never felt this bad,
And there's no feeling like it.
You've got your hand on my neck,
The cords on my arms.
I'll do whatever you wish
Just do me no harm.
I'm sick of pleading and begging for help.
Sick of being lonely,
So hear my yelp.
I'm tired of being abandoned
And hurt all the time.
Tired of being lonely.
And constantly behind.
Tired of being clueless,
Of what to feel, and how to react.
But I refuse to give up
I have to attack.
Show me the way
Tell me what I must do.
Do I take my own actions.
Or put my trust in you?
....I don't see you around me,
Or hear any answers.
I guess life doesn't change.
It's a burden, it's a cancer....
23.
Once again
Due to no fault but my own.
I'm left by myself.
Udderly alone.
I sit and i think
about where I went wrong.
About why I keep signing
This depressing song.
The repetitive chorus
Of the sad life I live.
A constant reminder,
of the bad things I did.
I'm sick of the hatrid,
that builds up inside.
Sick of falling asleep
Everynight while I cry.
All I want is love,
to feel alive again.
To once again be human,
for once just to win.
A never-ending struggle
that's the life I live.
Not even knowing
what it is i did.
If I could live it again,
I'd change every little aspect.
Change the way I see,
Deploy a new tactic.
On the brink of insanity
Treading thin ice.
The chance of revival.
LIke 12 sided dice.
My emotions run low.
My heart slowly dies.
My feelings astray.
For half of my life
I've felt this way.
But I play the same card
And try to stay strong
Try to stay alive.
...While I sing this sad song
24.
My life is too hard.
A living hell.
I'm forever entrapped,
In this painful cell.
I want you to beleive,
That what I've said is true.
No matter what happens,
I'll care about you.
I feel no regret.
For feelings I've shared.
I Feel no regret
For how much I care.
I respect your decision
and always will.
That doesn't change
The way i feel.
But everything sweet must have it's sours.
Painful and ruthless,
Like the thorns on these flowers.
25.
My life is meaninless,
My soul is empty.
My heart is hollow,
My pain a-plenty.
My emotions run high
My thoughts astray.
My life fades slowly.
WIth every day.
My eyes see beauty.
My ears hear lies.
Every time I see,
I begin to cry.
My hands feel love
My mind thinks so too.
My heart beats faster
When I'm with you.
My life has meaning.
My soul has color.
My thoughts all the same.
You're not for another..
My knees buckle
When in your presence.
When I'm around you
Everything's pleasant.
Like the rest of my life,
It doesn't last long.
It hurts me so bad.
But for your love I long.
So again I'm hurt.
My life has no meaning.
My soul's again black.
My eye's see sheer distance,
My thoughts aren't on track.
My ears hear crying.
I have no hand to hold.
The pain returns in doubles.
My heart's become cold.