cast party

Apr 05, 2003 23:18

Tonight, at my other house, there is a cast party. I am fairly upset that I am not there. Its my second home, there is a big party, people I dont even like are there, but not me. It just bothers me. I suppose it is because I am petty. But heh. I hate being at home. *sighs* so it goes, so it goes.
My hands have been cold lately. I am generally an over heated person. It just feels that lately I am cold. BAH. I complain to much. But that is what the other live journal losers do...So yes, that makes it ok. So it goes. So it goes. Its ok because that is what everyone else does.
I am frightened I have a meeting with a "counselor" this coming week. I am so afraid I might open my mouth. Tell them something. I debate in my head constantly if I am ok or not. I mean, I suppose I am alright. But what do I know. I think I am alright. Maybe just confused,troubled, something along those lines.
What a wonderful hesitation
Who would bear to feel sorry for me
Dropped another pill just to calm me
Collapsed to my knees and fell fast into sleep
There I was drifting
Way out into the sunshine
Expecting to crash but I'm tied to a string
Look at me I'm a tangled puppet
I might be a mess but I sure can survive
Find myself awake counting sad days
1-2-3 that's too many for me
Dropped another pill just to find me
Reached for my hand
But It was already there
Then I started believin'
That I fell out of a tiny raindrop
That lost its way when it decided to roam
Chasing me was a hungry dweller
But I had escaped it by pretending to die
Come follow me you won't expect the illusion
You'll see, it's my imagination
Hand me your eyes
I will put them in front of mine
You'll see a little better
You'll see a little better
What a wonderful destination
Where I am now
I can no longer see
Dropped another pill just to kill me
Collapsed to my knees
And fell fast into sleep
There I was drifting
Way out into the sunshine
Expecting to crash but I'm tiet to a string
Look at me I'm a tangled puppet
I might be a mess but I sure can survive
But I had escaped it by pretending to die
so it goes.
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